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2008-11-05T23:36:00.003+08:00

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memories..

2008-11-03T21:56:00.009+08:00

been reading my OWN blog the past few days.
starting from the very beginning when this blog was first created. i guess i was sec 3 then?
could feel that life has become very different. so different that i dont really know how to explain it.
the only thing i realised after reading my entries in the past was that things seemed alot alot happier then.

there werent any problems between friends. it's like i knew everyone was trustable, and the people around me were my true friends. pple whom i noe i can trust and rely on in times of need. and no. they dont keep saying it all the time or keep telling you that 'yeah im here when u need me. just call me' or tell you that 'i love you sam. we're best friends', we dont hug each other when we see each other or even tell each other ' i miss you' all the time. but it's the kinda feeling you get when you are with them, the kinda things you do together, the times spent with each other. the way we really understood each other from the bottom of our hearts and the things you do for each other. some stuff dont really need to be spelt out between friends like this. i dont really know how to describe it. but it's just this telepathy thing we all seem to have between us. it's really hard to tell a third party about the kinda telepathy we have. you have to be part of it to feel it. even till now, although we dont see each other everyday like we used to or even talk to each other like we used to and worst we hardly even know how the other person's life is now. we only get to meet up once in many many months. but somehow the telepathy between us has never died, neither has it got weaker, instead, i think it got stronger and stronger everyday.

i lost count of the number of times when yingqi would suddenly pop out on msn and talk to me just when i was feeling down. and she never fails to understand what im going through. and no. i didnt tell her anything. it's just coincidence. and the time when i happened to tell tanglin that i suddenly miss her alot and she happened to be looking at our squad photo at the very same time. or the time when yingqi promised to buy me milo when i had gastric and she really did it! or the time when yingqi came down all the way to SP in the middle of the night just to give me a hug just because i called her and cried over the phone during FOC this year. or even the number of times when jiaen sent a very very sweet msg to tell us that squadmates are still here no matter what happens. and the times when the thought of my squadmates just brightened up my day. and most importantly, everytime i go for any event or be it just being in school, the images of my squadmates never fail to appear in my mind. and i'd always think how nice if my squadmates were with me now. going through the exact same thing as me. sharing the same joy im experiencing. and it's worst esp when im at camps. it's like every camp that i had been through had traces of my squadmates and now it's so different.

see.
it's all the small minor incidents, the very very sweet things we do for each other. and the time we sacrifice just to meet up be it just for awhile. there's just too many things i can say about my squadmates and too many things i can remember doing with my squadmates that it'd probably be too much for me to type it all out. but it's stuff that i'll always remember. and....
thanks for being my squadmate, all 16 of you (:

6 years of friendship and we're still going strong (:
im proud to say im part of the squad 3013-53

FRIENDS KEEP PROMISES WITH THEIR HEARTS.

you know..
i almost broke down when i recieved ur msg on sunday night.

i kinda lost count of the number of times i almost broke down within these 2 weeks.
and the number of times i told myself to be strong and not to let the tears fall.
i'd most probably hug and cry my lungs out to the next person who..................

2008-11-01T22:51:00.002+08:00

it's been an uneventful yet unhappy week.
haii. so many unhappy things happened. especially at home ):
oh wells.
sucks to have so many feelings bottled up inside.
i really really feel like calling you up. just to chat. can i?
):

ah wells.
yest did the live sound thing for BE's talentime.
im glad we didnt really screw up the show this time. haha. althought the lightings were abit screwed up at first. but peiyun did a good job controlling the lights! haha.
and there was only 3 of us to do the whole show la. i mean whole show including sound, lightings and setting up the stage. one person how to set up the the whole stage???!!
haha. but we managed to do it. the only prob was the monitor speakers were not working and the wireless mic cant work too. so we had to shout from the stage to FOH. SHOUT. omg.
lol. no la. we not so dumb. we used handphone to communicate. but it was kinda inconvenient. stupid wireless mic always cant work.
lotsa smit pple came over cos shafiq was performing. haha.
live sound is super cool and it's fun to work in the dark. lol. the atmosphere damn good.
HAHAHA.

and some unhappy things happened but i do not wish to talk bout it here.
all i can say is. i was damn pissed off that night.
haii.

i tink im gonna give up soon.
it's so tiring to wait and wait everyday. hope and wish everyday.
but yet nth happens at the end of the day ):

2008-10-29T22:20:00.001+08:00

haii. it's happening all over again.
except..
it's much worst this time.
haii.
i almost cried just now.
it's so scary..

i so wanted to talk to you just now ):
but i cant...

2008-10-27T00:08:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR COUSIN (:
and all the indians are celebrating with you! how nice!!
LOL.
im mean.
but I LOVE YOU ANYWAYS DEAR CHERYL GANNIE.
hahaha.

today was a wonderful day spent.
lol.
had fun being retarded with my cousins.
haha. i mean seriously retarded. we were doing the dumbest things ever.
but it was fun (:
I LOVE YOU COUSIN!

and yeaa.
it was a nice afternoon spent with you too (:
next time we shall plan WHAT to do and WHERE to go first.
hahaha. yes.
oh and i realised u dont have to be rich to be an audiophile.
you need to be FREAKING rich to be one.
like seriously. the prices are like OMGGGGGG.
hahahaha.
and the boss at the shop was scary. really!
lol.

woooo.
bye!
LOVE YOU indian COUSIN!
happy deepavali everyone!
((((:

2008-10-25T21:59:00.002+08:00

i am soooo tiredddd.

this week is rather uneventful.
hahha. nth much happened laa. im too lazy to elaborate bout the week.
it's just school everyday. haha. school's fun but im so tired....
lol. but it's ok (:
im enjoying this tiredness cos school's fun.

went out with vick grace and hui yest to watch movie.
haha. cos we only had music theory from 8-10. lol.
went to watch tropic thunder. funny show.
lol.
and yeah.

im too tired to type.
haha.
bloody cramps are irritating me.
and keep making me want to sleep.
argh.

yayy. im excited to meet you (:

羅志祥-用愛點亮希望

2008-10-20T22:34:00.001+08:00

OMG! xiaozhu's new song!
haha. for charity i tink??
nice laa. although it sounds like some oldies.
the mix makes it sound like some oldies.
LOL. but it's still nice (:

2008-10-17T12:24:00.003+08:00

yooo.
havent been blogging about school aye.
haha. school's been pretty much fun so far. because assignments havent really come in yet.
LOL. next week. it's gonna start! the mad rush for assignments. haha.
oh. i tink i kinda over strained my muscle while running up and down during the live sound thing on wednesday. haha. peiyun oso laa! only grace never. cos she stay at FOH only. lol.

MONDAY
firsty day of school..
was super excited to go school after a super long holiday. couldnt sleep the night before laa. haha. but i still woke up on time! and i was like super energetic. lol.
so the first day of school started with DVPT. sian laa. and now we're on the 5th level labs! cannot hide from jennifer ang anymore! ahha. den cannot watch videos in class!
after that was performance laa. den nothing much lo.

after school went for dinner with vick.
lol. chatted for a super super long time laa. talked bout lotsa stuff too (:

TUESDAY
was a super long day.
our timetable was 8-6! that's like madness. haha.
but gems was fun! khaz and zakk were in the same gems as me. yayy. finally i got friend. haha.
after school we had strings. was damn tired after that laa. arms were aching. haha.
tuesday was a tiring day laa.

but i was super happy when i recieved ur msg in the day!
surprised too (:

WEDNESDAY
finally can wake up late because lesson starts at 10! and we only had one lesson that day.
and yeah. had live sound duty at moberly. and i tink we kinda screwed up the show. haha. although things still managed to run smoothly in the end. after not touching the mixer for soooooo long. we really forgot alot of stuff. haha. BUT we're ok with it now! the next show will be successful! i hope? lol.

THURSDAY
had piano early in the morning. den went for REMT. live sound is super fun! haha. i love it (:
den joel chunhui peiyun and me decided to go for ensemble. haha. but we were having so much fun chatting at fc4 dat we decided to go next week instead. so end up we only went to watch the ensemble practice for awhile. was damn motivated to practice my violin after that laa. haha. we went back to clubroom and wanted to practice abit but our violins were soooo out of tune. and by the time we kinda tuned our violins already time to go home! haha. nvm. i shall practice at home den. lol.
oh yeah.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMY! you're finally 18!
haha.

FRIDAY
today! yayy. no lesson today because tin hee not feeling well i tink? hope she gets well soon!
so yeah. today's my dad's birthday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!
haha. going out for dinner together with my family later(:
so yepps.
BYE!

oh yeah. i need to go yamaha get some stuff.
anyone wanna date me out? haha.
den i can go buy my stuff at the same time.
HEHE.

2008-10-15T00:47:00.002+08:00

ahh..
i feel like crying..
really really feel like crying..
but the tears just wont flow.
and this feeling sucks.

i dont know wad to do.
how.
VICK.
HOW?
HOW?????
VICKKKK.
):

2008-10-12T02:12:00.003+08:00

was looking through some photos taken during the beginning of the year.
from FOC to graduation performance to esplanade performance till now.

and somehow i realised...
things seemed so much happier then.
so many things.
be it friends
or just growing up problems.
haii.

can we all go back to the past?
when things were still happy.
when there was nothing to make life miserable.
when everyone were still friends.
when school was still enjoyable.
when we could talk bout anything and everything.
when we could laugh over anything and everything too.
haiiii.

growing up is so tiring ):

i want to go back to that period of time.....

S.H.E－沿海公路的出口MV(HD VER.)

2008-10-10T01:33:00.001+08:00

found it! go listen! haha.

2008-10-10T01:29:00.002+08:00

addicted to so many nice songs recently!
here's one of them.
all emo songs laa. haha. cos they somehow kinda describe how im feeling.
SOMEHOW only. lol.
go listen online if you can! really super nice.
haha.

S.H.E - 沿海公路的出口
用一根火柴烧一场蜃楼
藉这场大雨让自己逃走
荒茫公路无人的漂泊
寂寞海啸把我卷走

用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一道伤口
躲在万劫不复的街头
微笑参透覆水难收

倘若说放一次手
就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以後无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋

我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
留不住回忆却学不会放手
怎麽走

2008-10-08T01:06:00.001+08:00

headache!
and my throat sucks.
argh.

wrote some dumb lyrics few days ago.
and sihao helped me make it into a super nice song.
and he sent it for competition!!
haha. omg. my horrible lyrics kena send to competition.
LOL.

oh wells.
i miss you ):
dreams still dont come true. sadly

2008-10-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

stop thinking sam!

stop!

stop!

ahhhhhh~

i cant stop.
how?

2008-10-06T12:32:00.002+08:00

i tink i got some kind of throat infection ):
arghh.

went for my mum's cousin's wedding dinner yesterday.
it was held at singapore expo. haha. not in the hall of course. it's at some restaurant over there.
the food was not very nice... for a wedding dinner laa.
but oh wells. i tink their planning kinda screwed up. cos one of my mum's cousin came and left. cos apparently there wasnt space for her family. hmm.
doesnt seem very nice aye. but oh wells..
the bride was super super pretty!!! haha..

me and my cousins were discussing how we want our wedding to be like next time..
a question i never really thought bout before. haha. wedding lehh. seem so far away..
but after hearing what my cousins say.. i decided what kind of wedding i wanna have alr (:
cheryl wants hers to be held at the beach! haha. cool idea.
mun ling wants to fly in! haha. she doesnt want to walk in on red carpet. nonsense laa she.
and she says there'll be no sharks fin for her wedding dinner cos she doesnt want to kill more sharks. HAHAHA. vegetable soup aye.

had a great time spending time with my cousins.
although there were only 4 of us yesterday. cos samuel and germaine had PSLE.
shaun had exams. and i dunno why andrew nvr come. lol.
first time it was only the 4 of us at dinner laa. cool (:

school's gonna start in a week's time!
and tmr must choose gems. hope i dont end up in some stupid gems ALONE again.
haha.
okie im off to watch hotshot(:
bYE!

041008

2008-10-05T12:05:00.010+08:00

woohooo.
yesterday was the bestest day ever.
haha! met up with ALL my bestest friends in a single day!
i was so busy that day! haha. changed so many 'shifts' cos i was meeting so many different groups of friends in a day. LOL. but i had alot alot of fun (:

was super glad u managed to make it in time.
even though i was bout to fall asleep when u msged me. HAHA!
thanks for making the effort to meet up even though u were so tired.
can see that you were super worn out cos ur eyes were so red.
haha. make me feel so bad.
hope to see ya again! soon i hope (:
take care and rest well.
dont be so stress yeah.

after that went to meet grace and chunhui cos grace wanted to go shopping.
she was the only one shopping laa. haha. me and chunhui were just there to accompany her. and she really SHOPPED. bought so many things. lol
then i went to meet my dear squadmates at pepperlunch(:
celebrated tanglin and kirstie's early birthday! haha. had fun laughing and crapping around with them. then we went to prepare our surprise for them! at the playground at suntec. haha! so cool la. was so glad to see them so touched (:
LOVE YA SQUADDIES!
TKGRCY 3013-53. WOOO~

then i had to leave early again.
haha. cos i had to go do the dedication thing for joel at the lazer show.
sooming and cera accompanied me down (:
and they decided to do the dedication for tang and kirstie too.
haha. so yeah. the lazer show kept flashing the msg for joel and tang and kirstie!
so happy to see 3 of my bestest friends' names up there.
damn cool laa. one was from DMAT 8ban. the other was from TKGRCY 3013-53.
the feeling was so..... undescribable
LOVE YA ALL SO SO SO MUCH!

so yeah.
my dear squadmates left after that cos i went to join my dear 8ban alr.
vick joined us after that. together with hazel(:
we went to esplanade and watched some band performance. haha.
but i didnt really want to stay there cos the sound was so super blasting. and the moment i dont do anything i'll start to THINK. think bout some unhappy stuff.
haha. so i suggested we go somewhere else and DO something instead.
oh yeah! we met oliver there too! haha.
anyways.
chunhui had to leave alr so we sent her off at the bus stop. and decided to just sit around esplanade and chat.
left esplanade at 1130(:
and we thought we missed the last train. haha.
luckily never.
reached home at 12 plus.
den chatted with grace on the phone till 230.
was so tired laa.
oh oh oh! out of the 8 of us. 4 of us were sick! haha.
vick joel peiyun and me. LOL
so bonded right? we share germs too.

but it was a day filled with lotsa fun, laughters and beautiful memories(:
really didnt want the day to end. how i wished time could just stay still forever and we will all stay together forever too.
LOVE YA ALL LOADS.
everyone that i met today(:

PICTURES!

squadmates(:

tanglin and kirstie (:

squadmates forever!

sooming.

beloved squadmates

me tanglin yingqi

yeah! we made this for the 2 birthday girls.

8BAN (:

joel me grace

8ban. plus yiqing and a missing vick.

yeah! finally! our best group photo!
8BAN. plus yiqing and hazel (:

how i wish we can hold hands and walk down the streets one day.
i wanted a hug so much.
will i ever get one?

dreams...

2008-10-03T23:16:00.003+08:00

woo.
work's been over for few days. haha.
no more irritating kids and dumb teachers to handle anymore.
the job's been fun yet tiring. the kids were cute laa. just a little too annoying at times.
hahaha.

went to watch mirrors on wednesday with peiyun grace chunhui and shun.
haha. imagine grace watching MIRRORS! lol. damn funny la. she was just covering her eyes throughout the whole show.
den halfway through the show i was covering my eyes and happened to turn and look at shun and i got a fright of my life. HAHA. he stupidly hide his head in his shirt. so i turned over and saw him WITH NO HEAD. damn dumb. but i burst out laughing after that.
chunhui was damn cool la. she totally not affected at all. omg. she's.... non-human.
HAHA. cos me and peiyun were like covering our eyes but still trying to peep to see wad happened. the show was scary. it's worst than 4bia.
bathed damn fast that night after i reached home. haha. i didnt dare to look at the mirror. seriously. first time i watch horror movie and SO TERRIBLY affected by it. omg.
ended up talking to grace on the phone till 5am. haha.
that stupid show has been terrifying me TILL NOW. although not so much anymore.

thurday..
had piano at 11 in the morning.
den met peiyun and grace to go hand in our time sheet for our work so that we can get our pay(:
den met ferguson after that. AND he msged to say he was gonna be SLIGHTLY late. but he ended up 2 1/2 hrs late laa! huhh.. LOL
went to watch eagle eye. the show was super cool. lol.
but it'll be damn scary if it happens in real life. haha. stupid system laa. cause so much trouble.
but it's still kinda cool to own an eagle eye. but like wad ferg say. must plan for emergency shut down. HAHAHA.
after the movie we went sakae. lol.
talked so much and laughed so much laa. haha. den went to macdonalds to rot.
i was dreading to go home laa. haha. cos i was still suffering after the stupid mirrors movie.
i just wanted to stay out and not go home. lol.
but ferg and grace seemed tired so no choice. go home lor.
haha. but i decided to sleep my brother's room that night so... i finally managed to get some sleep! haha.
was feeling so high the whole day laa. cos lack of sleep.

today..
did nth much. haha.
only went for piano lesson AGAIN. den went home.
and slept on the sofa. was feeling so tired la. dunno why.

TOMORROW!
is gonna be a super exciting day.
haha. cos im gonna meet ALL my bestest friends in a day!
celebrating joel and tanglin's bdae together at the same place at different times.
haha.
and hope you can come out early so we can meet! haha.
but it's ok if we cant. next week oso can (:

who said dreams do come true if u dreamt hard enough?
haii.
i dreamed so hard but still it didnt come true.
and i doubt it ever will.
it will just remain a dream forever and ever.
cos i cant do anything bout it ):

i need an angel who makes dreams come true..
where are you angel?

(:

2008-09-28T12:49:00.005+08:00

whee. left 2 days of work!
and freedom!! woohoo!
plus tmr im going out with 4 fantastic pple.
haha. double yayness.

anyways.
working at science centre was enjoyable yet tiring.
so tiring to wake up at 6 plus everyday! haha. and the worst thing is i cant be late. not like school. heh!
but it's still fun.
little kids are cute but so difficult to handle. haha.
and i never knew primary school GIRLS were equally hard to control. omg laa.
they were like. so messy. haha! i almost scolded them seh.

oh wells.
yesterday went for my cousin's bdae celebration at imperial treasure (teochew) restaurant.
im not close to this cousin cos i only see him like once a year during chinese new year? haha.
but his family is freaking rich.
he's only 10yrs old yet his bdae celebration felt like as though he was 80 or sth.
wth. and the restaurant was like. damn high class laa. the food was OMG.
the first dish was ABALONE! followed by SHARKS FIN!
for a 10yr old boy's bdae dinner???? isnt it abit.... over?
but anyways. i took photo of the sharks fin. cos it's the first time i eat PURE sharks fin. OMG.
hahaha.

and at the dinner there was this 17yr old guy.
damn childish laa. he's freaking 17! yet behaves like he's 10 or sth.
cos my little cousins went to disturb him. they go throw ice into his shirt. and he actually took ice and chased them round, wanting revenge. the worst thing is. he actually crawled under the table.
WTF right. for a 17 yr old boy to be doing that. and he was sitting opposite me. he crawled all the way to MY SIDE OF THE TABLE. freaking childish.
i scolded him. HAHA. cos i really cant stand his behaviour. 17 yrs old leh. GROW UP LA.
they are just kids.. only 8 yrs old leh.
he's some stranger anyways. haha cant stand him.
look like some retard.
my cousin kept saying how retarded he's behaving. lol
make me laugh like mad throughout the whole dinner.

ok! pictures!

alexia kho (:

my super cute cousin. haha. love her laa.

cute right!

alexia, claire and ryan.
the KHO cousins. lol

MAY! not my cousin. haha. some little girl i met at the dinner.
she's so pretty! and super friendly too (:

cute right?
i tink she's mixed blood. but she speaks perfect chinese.

thats PURE SHARKS FIN!

and the sharks fin soup.
which i felt tasted kinda like chicken essence.

my cousin was trying to steal MY food!

mango pudding!

yes. i drank both of that!
haha.

不够成熟

2008-09-28T02:08:00.001+08:00

BY2 - 不够成熟

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念你走以後
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要事过境迁了以後才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手
如果有一天我们有缘再见
你会不会想起说过的永远

lyrics so meaningful....
and the song super nice.
although i dont like the singers..
i like the song!

2008-09-25T23:08:00.001+08:00

my mood is so bad these few days.
hmm. dunno why.
i get irritated so easily la.
by PEOPLE.

argh.

my arms are aching like mad.
and im super tired.
this job is shit work.

lost a friend ):

2008-09-23T00:41:00.002+08:00

i cant sleep!
and i need to wake up at 6 plus tmr.
damn.

felt like getting this load of thoughts off my mind.......

some people come into ur life.. and stay forever..
some people come into your life.. just to take a peek and go..
some people come into ur life.. stay for awhile then decides to leave..
haii. why cant everyone just stay forever..

had so much to say just now..
and suddenly i realise im lost for words..
i dunno how to express wad ive been thinking bout this few days all of a sudden..

probably it's the first time i lost a friendship that i treasured alot.
first time i treasured a friend so much yet the other party doesnt seem to think the same.
a friend i thought i could have for a long time..
haii. yeah. it's the first time i lost a friend whom i was so close to just months ago.
or maybe weeks ago?
oh wells.

kinda miss the times we talked so much.
miss the times we msg each other for almost the whole day.
miss the times we msg in the middle of the night till i fall asleep.
miss the times we chatted on the phone till daybreak.
miss the times when i know there was someone i could disturb when i cant get to sleep at night.
miss the times when we met for dinner so often.
miss the times when i could rant to you about anything.
miss the times when i had someone to talk to when i was feeling down.
miss the morning calls early in the morning.
miss the times when i could ask you for help and you'd definitely have a way to solve my probs.
miss the times when we were still good friends ):

didnt want you to get the wrong idea.
yet i dunno how to tell you that i really dont want us to drift further anymore.
i dont know if ure ever gonna read this but in any case if you do.
just wanna let you know that i really treasured that friendship we had alot.
yet now we seem to be so stranger.

we were friends who talked everyday in the past.
and now we're friends who seem to have totally nothing to talk about.
sad huh?
you were a friend i could confide in and talk to about anything under the sun.
cos i noe you'd have good advice and everything.
thats why you began to become like an older brother to me, a friend i could turn to anytime.
but oh wells.
like wad you say..
maybe it's the time when we have to move on to a new phase in life..
and yeah. so be it.

so...
if you happen to chance upon this post..
dont get the wrong idea about anything i said above.
it's just.. you were a really nice friend to talk to and hang out with (:

2008-09-21T23:51:00.006+08:00

BOREDOM is killing me.
can we hurry hurry start school.
:(

hotshot was super nice!
ahh. super looking forward to the next episode.
LZX is big big LOVE.
woooo.

life is becoming so unhappy.
so many unhappy things happened.
haii.
how to say leh.
IM NOT EMO.
just thinking too much i guess.
haha.

can we just ALL be friends?
haii. it's so stressful to talk to you all now u noe.
WHY! WHY! WHY!

*the above was refering to you you and YOU*
yes. 3 of you ):
sadly.

there's nth to look forward to anymore ):
haii.

and im missing this bunch of pple loads loads.
hurry finish ur A levels.. den we can go out!

3013-53!
SQUADMATES FOR LIFE. WHOOO.

2008-09-20T02:47:00.001+08:00

ARGHHHH.

FUCK LAR.

holidays are BORING

2008-09-19T20:55:00.003+08:00

it's 9pm now.
u hardly ever see an entry from me at this time of the day huh.
the only reason why im here now is because IM BORED.
totally bored.
cant wait to get my keyboard so i can play with logic more freely.

life is getting so boring.
holidays are boring. esp when u have to work at some dumb place and the work is not enjoyable.
but for the sake of money.... haii...
maybe i really need to get a *********
HAHAHAHA.

grace.. you noe wad im refering to right.
LOL sth u and me always want when we get bored.
haha. add some excitement to life you see.
woooo.
shhhh. our secret.

cant wait for sch to reopen again.
but then again. i dont really look forward to sch.
argh.

yest was such a problematic night.
was trying to solve TWO problems concurrently.
almost drive me mad.
i CAN multi-task ok.
but not multi-task mentally cos it drives you mad.
im talking shit.
BOREDOM drives you mad.
AHHHH.
im going to work tmr! all the way at BOON KENG!
wtf.

so effing far.
im becoming so vulgar. haha
ok. its not sth to be happy bout.

BORED LA.
go watch tv.
bye.

2008-09-16T23:54:00.004+08:00

itchy. scratching.
argh.

haha.
woke up this morning feeling super weird.
the moment i opened my eyes everything started spinning. the whole world started spinning like nobody's business. i mean literally spinning. until i felt giddy even though im lying on the bed. i thought maybe i was gonna lose consciousness on the bed or sth. haha. i even suspected maybe i got some brain cancer or sth.
so i decided to sit up. and slowly tilt my head to the left. and the moment i did that everything started spinning to the left. and i tilt to the right then everything start spinning to the right. it was super freaky. so i waited for awhile before i finally stoop up and went to tell my dad bout it. and the world was still spinning.
shit. damn scary laa. i thought i was gonna faint or sth.
but i still went for piano.
was worried sth was gonna happen to me. wah lao.
never felt like this before lo.

but anyways. after piano lesson.
went to meet vick and spent the whole day out with him(:
we went to watch 4bia. damn scary laa. and that vick keeps trying to scare me. haha.
i was hiding behind him all the while. lol. kept grabbing onto him.
after that went for lunch at burger king. ahaha. den went to bugis to get some stuff that vick was trying to find. WATERMELON. hahaha. and i realised cookie monster is uber cute(:
I LOVE COOKIE MONSTER! lol.
anyways. went to macdonald to sit after that cos vick needed to use the wireless. so went to eat ice cream. haha. and i was just slacking around while watching vick do his work lo. and he dont allow me to sleep even though i was so sleepy. so i ended up playing his hp games to kill time. lol. and yeah. sat till almost 7pm den went to eat dinner at pastamania. haha. couldnt finish my food cos i wasnt that hungry and as usual vick finished it laa. lol.
after that went off le.
and we both alighted at aljunied. haha. i accompanied him to wait for bus 62 and we ended up chatting for a super long time. about 1 hr plus bah? waited for about 5 bus 62. lol.
talked about stuff and crapped alot too. haha. and finally went home!
reached home at 11.
WHOA.
haha. but i had fun spending the whole day hanging around with you dear bear!
even though we were just slacking around most of the time. haha.

LTC 0809

2008-09-14T16:01:00.008+08:00

yess. im back from LTC at pulau ubin!
haha.

i guess i never regretted going for this camp afterall.
at least i learnt sth. experienced stuff not everyone got a chance to.
not gonna type out wad happened during the camp bah. it's too much to type.
haha.

the whole camp only got 2 female helpers lar. me and sherilyn.
lol. first time i go camp with ALL guys. only 1 girl companion. sad right.
haha. but hanging out with the guys were fun too.
the camp was ok lar. alot of last minute changes but it was still relatively ok.
jan and XJ did a good job as CC and ACC.
it's not easy running a camp laa. especially training camps. lol.
the camp kinda reminded me of the days in red cross. haha. all the training camps we had.
did almost exactly the same thing laa. kena tekan. pack and unpack. pitch and unpitch tent. survivor cooking. not bathing!
the campers were.. not that strong mentally bah. i think? haha. i dunno.
but they survived the camp after all. congrats! (:
yayy.

first day...
we had one camper down cos she had some face allergy. so she decided to go home. haha. like seriously there's NOTHING we can do cos we dont have the medicine to help her then she keep complaining and complaining. cry and cry. so we decided it was better to just send her home.
yepp.
so i was the night hero for the first day together with ferguson and weishan.
didnt sleep the whole night cos had to follow the campers to their campsite and take care of them laa. walked so much and got so many dogss!!! lol. scared laa.
then next morning hike back to the main campsite again.
weishan walked damn fast. haha. until me and ferg keep lagging behind for some particular reason. lol. everytime we catch up we will unknowingly lag behind again. until they stop. haha. but both of us never slow down. we kept the same pace throughout the whole walk. HAHAHA.
lack of sleep laa.

went back to our campsite and managed to sleep for 2 hrs. before our tent got too hot to sleep. haha. so i gave up trying to sleep cos was feeling too itchy and too hot.
lol.

second day..
the campers could not take it anymore.
they were too tired and really could not move on so we decided to let them camp at our campsite. so no more playing of night hero. lol. yayy. if not it'ss be another sleepless night again.
haha.

third day..
went to sleep at around 4am at the jetty. and it was so bloody cold.
the wind was so freezing laa. until i could feel my teeth jittering. and it was raining!
lol. we were wet la.

fourth day..
woke up at 6am i tink? and couldnt take the freezing wind at the jetty anymore. haha. i just wanted to get out of that place asap. lol.
so me sherilyn and gavin went back to campsite first. so yeah.
last day didnt do much cos it was raining. so we just packed up and went back to SINGAPORE!!
woohoo. was walking in the rain. fun laa. LOL.

realised i never mentioned anything that happened in the day?
haha. cos me and sherilyn were medics of the camp. so we were not in charge of any activity. we kinda just spent the whole day slacking around. cos the campers were relatively fine. no major injuries or anything. so we were just on stand by all the time. haha.
oh yeah. i forgot to mention.
WE HAD 4 DAYS OF INSTANT NOODLE. baked beans. corns. mushrooms and sardines.
omg laa. for every meal!! *faints*

so yes.
finally reached home. bathed and slept immediately.
lol. so tired.
on the way home i almost fell asleep on the train while standing.
and everytime i close my eyes. guess wad appeared in my mind...
UBIN. grass. insects. the campers. jan and xj.
wth right. lol.

this is the first time i go for smit event without any close friends laa.
haha. never thought i would attend a smit event without chunhui or vick. especially not a camp.
but i survived even without them! haha.
yayy.

MISS ME!

2008-09-09T00:30:00.001+08:00

im gonna be off to camp at pulau ubin till saturday!
MISS ME PPLE.
haha.

A little kid trying to say blood

2008-09-06T00:10:00.003+08:00

haha. the kid is super cutee!
stole this from filza's blog.

it's super super funny. BLOODUH.
LOL.

2008-09-03T23:51:00.001+08:00

i thought i was strong.
):

but im just a piece of lousy shit.
argh.

2008-09-03T20:43:00.003+08:00

wooo.
had a super fun time at yum cha today with vick oliver grace peiyun and chunhui.
LOL.
ate so many dim sum.
everything they bring out we say we want
HAHAHA
and vick really eat ALOTTTT.

den after that wanted to go kino with peiyun but we decided to go home cos the logic software we were carrying was so heavy. haha.
so me vick and peiyun were on the same train home.
ollie went out with grace and ginny and chunhui wasnt on the same mrt line as us. so yeah.
and that stupid vick.
keep disturbing me on the train.
eat too much mango pudding lar.
hahaha.
he was being super dumb.
doing the dumbest things ever.
crazy lar. hahaha.
den peiyun just sit there and laugh.
entertaining right? dear mushroom....

he's gonna kill me if he sees this.
haha. right vick?
LOL.
AH CHING. hahahaha.
stop biting pple's hand you BEAR.

let's have stay over again.
8 of us=)
yayyyy.

2008-09-03T01:20:00.003+08:00

我家里出事了
haii.

so much stuff has happened at home.
it's just... too much.
it feels like my family is crumbling.
everything seems to be falling apart.
everything=(

had a super long talk with my mum just now.
and she broke down. all i did was to sit there and keep quiet.
i noe she's troubled. i noe she's upset.
but i cant do anything other than just being her listening ear.
feel so helpless.....

i so wanted to cry just now too.
but i noe i cant.
i cant....
i just knew i had to hold back my tears.
tears welled up in my eyes so many many times.
but i just had to swallow it back.
i couldnt let it fall.
who was i to cry?
i had to be strong
strong enough to be her listening ear.

):

im sorry grace..
for not being there to listen when u needed someone to talk to.
i had my own problems to settle.....
sorry...

2008-08-29T01:15:00.002+08:00

had loadsa fun yest. the stay over was super fun.
love the 7 of you loads.
hoped time could stop at that moment.

and most importantly. thanks for the present!!
the 10 bestest pple=)
i noe who you are ok!

grace
chunhui
peiyun
peilin
vick
joel
jeremy
shawn
weishan
ferguson

yes yes.
thanks!!!!
LOVE YOU ALL.
LOADS LOADS LOADS.
thanks for helping fulfill my 1yr plus dream.
LOL

2008-08-28T23:20:00.002+08:00

=(
i
suck.
suck.
suck.
suck.
suck.

my best friend has a problem.
but i cant help. cant do anything.
and i dont even noe wads the prob.

and here i am hurting another friend at the same time.

see.
told you i suck.
shit stuff.

2008-08-26T23:59:00.003+08:00

feeling so.... sian.
no mood.
even though tmr's gonna be a super fun day.
but it doesnt seem to be making me any happier.
too much shit has happened in my life.
im tired.
very tired.

=(
go away.
lock me up forever.
i dont wanna come out anymore.

cant u just let me stone once in a while?
i just wanna keep quiet and think.
stop bugging me.

i feel like crying.
cant u sense it?
i miss you=(

2008-08-22T00:02:00.002+08:00

dont know since when........

ive been looking forward to weekends because........
hmmm.......
why?

YUAN DA YING!
HOTSHOT!
or maybe................
(:

2008-08-19T23:24:00.002+08:00

I AM BORED.
SUPER BORED.
lalalalalalala.
no shows to watch. and nothing to do!
actually i have. just no mood.
hmmm.

there's sth i feel like doing.........
BUT I SHALL NOT TELL YOU WAD.
it's SOMETHING. wooo. sth crazy=)

ah wells.
i wanna work.
but i dont wanna work.
but i want money.
i want a new phone. cos im gonna smash my phone on the floor one day.
the button is pissing me off. stupid button.

im getting so sick of all the shit that's happened this year.
argh. really so sick of it.
im not surprised if i ever lose my temper at her one day.
ONE FINE DAY.
OMG. someone kill me. before i kill someone first.

anyhows.
i had super duper lotsa fun yest=)
spending time with my 3 dearest friends.
even the time spent just rotting in starbucks was enjoyable.
cos i had the company of my wonderful friends.
looking forward to next wednesday!
8 BAN IS STAYING OVER! wooooohoooooo.
how fun is that gonna get.

you tink i will have the will to do it?
I HOPE. let me find my motivation first.
start...... next week. ok?
hmmm.....

wonderful foursome=)

2008-08-17T00:08:00.002+08:00

yesssss.
i really really cant wait for monday=)
cos the wonderful foursome is going out together! again!
just like last year=)
YAYYY. im going out with the 3 dearest pple ever.
haha. super excited! yeaaa!

VICK GRACE JEREMY!
SEE YA ON MONDAY!!
WOOOHOOOO.
love you 3 pple lots lots lots.
=))))

2008-08-10T00:30:00.004+08:00

i tink im gonna unlock my blog again.
HAHA.
cos i realise if i lock my blog i will not update.
LOL.
hmmm..
or maybe not....
dunno lar...
haha.

ANYWAYS.
derrick hoh's album is super nice=)
LOL.
woohooo.

enough. stop it.

2008-07-27T22:31:00.003+08:00

congrats if ure invited to view all this.
i hope all this is kept to only u and urself.
nobody but urself.
thanks.

im gonna rant and rant in this post
dont read if you are not interested.
so here goes... ...

firstly.
im sick and tired of this whole thing.
ive been trying my very best to treat u like any other normal friends but i realized i failed and im sick of deceiving myself about this whole matter.
im scared of you. yes. terrified.
i thought i could forget the whole incident after some time. and ive been trying hard to. i thought i could treat it like nothing. like it's just a small matter and brush it off but everytime i see you it just reminds me of that incident, the kind of fear when i just found out. it's hard to describe the feeling and i believe it's hard to understand the fear if this thing doesnt happen on you. maybe im too sensitive but so wad? thats me. just accept the fact that I AM SCARED.
and thanks to yesterday, ive made up my mind about all this.
im just gonna ignore you. treat you like invisible. other than official stuff i shall just pretend you do not exist. i so wanted to quit that whole *** thing but decided it was too irresponsible to do so because of such things so i hanged on. i swear ive been trying super hard to make everything seem ok. i tried but i failed ok. and i give up. it's no use making myself so miserable because of a person like you. i thought i could at least save that friendship between both of us but apparently u screwed everything up and im so sorry that ive chosen to give up a friend like you. cos i realised it's such a torture to talk to you. too bad you dont noe anything huh. you dunno how much i dread seeing you. seeing your name. even seeing ur name appear on msn makes me feel so arghhhh. or even recieving an sms from you also makes me feel so......... i dunno how to describe. but yes. thats exactly how i feel.
everytime i see you in school i feel like turning away and walk the other direction.
everytime you talk to me i dont feel like replying at all.
everytime you say sth i feel like shutting my ears and pretend i cant hear anything.
everytime i see ur sms appear on my hp i dont feel like reading it at all much less reply it.
everytime i see ur conversation appear on msn i feel like signing out.
i just dont want to have anything to do with you at all. AT ALL.
just get out of my sight can you? out of my life.
EFF OFF. ASSHOLE.
I HATE YOU. period.

haii.

secondly.
im super disappointed with you.
someone i thought i really knew very well turned out to become a total stranger in the end.
ive never expected my good friend to fall out with me because of such things. something which i feel is very childish for a person of ur age and maturity. im sorry if i sound a little harsh but yes. i really feel it's very childish because i dont see a need for getting angry over this matter. to make it simple you are just being selfish. and i dont understand why.
i thought i knew you well. but i thought wrong.
i thought we could share all our secrets together. but i thought wrong.
i thought we were best friends. but i thought wrong.
after so long. all my thoughts were wrong.
things seem to be ok now. but i know deep inside there's still a barrier between us.
this huge barrier which can never be removed anymore.
especially when you choose not to solve the problem.
pretend like nothing ever happened.
it hurts you noe. especially when it happens to a friend i thought i could trust.
but can i now?
haii.
im really really disappointed.

lastly.
nothing much to say just.....
i really really miss last year and my sec sch friends.
at least i know my sec sch friends are pple i can really trust.
and i really really wanna turn back time.
turn it back to last year.
when all of us were still good friends.
when none of such things happened.
when we could talk and laugh with each other with no worries.
where has all this happy moments gone to?

=((((((((((((((

2008-07-24T23:19:00.002+08:00

typed a whole chunk of stuff.
but i decided to delete.
all i can say is.
im super disappointed.
very disappointed with you.
haii.

i really miss talking to you.
come back faster can you.......

performance at esplanade!

2008-07-21T00:44:00.004+08:00

yay. today was our performance at esplanade.
lol. first time we sat pick up. haha. suakus.
had loadsa fun with them at the back of the lorry. LOL.
and super lotsa fun the night b4 at chunhui's hse. have more sleepover ok=)
and vick. dont drink so much lar. bad for health. lol.
btw. thanks ferguson for offering to help transfer our instruments to esplanade!

performance today was relatively ok.
except all of us felt it passed so fast. it's like so much hard work and practices we had ended up just LIKE THAT. so fast. too fast for us to even realise we were already performing the actual thing on stage. it felt so like a rehearsal instead. but oh well. it's the process that matters most right? i had loadsa fun practicing with them=) really alot alot of fun.

yayys. FORBIDDEN LOVE!
have i ever mentioned how much i love the 6 or rather 5 of them above in the photo?
together with peilin and jeremy=)
YES. I LOVE THEM LOADS LOADS LOADS.

busy busy week.

2008-07-19T00:21:00.005+08:00

YES. I AM OFFICIALLY 18!!
wooohooo.
and happy birthday to peilin too! (our bdae falls on the same day. and she's 13 hrs older than me. HAHA!)

haha. my birthday was spent with rushing music theory assignment and BUMs assignment.
so didnt feel like a birthday at all. except that the thought of knowing pple remembered ur bdae and makes the effort to wish you happy birthday made up for everything (:
so sweet of them to remember. esp those whom i seldom talk to or those friends whom i dont meet anymore now. and most importantly my dear squadmates! haha.

my mum was super sweet. lol.
she purposely stayed up till 12am and came to my room to wish me happy birthday and she gave me 2 necklaces and a huge huge hug!! haha! love my mama so so muchhhh. so sweet of her!
and my parents brought me out for dinner that day too. had sakae! (:
grace came along as well. haha. cos she came over to stay at my hse to rush our music theory. and chunhui came over in the middle of the night! lol. had fun lar. although we were like totally worn out the next day. haha. wasnt really processing wad i was presenting on thurs about those 20th century music shit. lol.

so yea. 16 july was spent rushing music theory. imagine having those 20th century composers spend ur bdae with you aye. bela bartok.. stravinsky.. how NICE! hehh.
but oh wells. here's a big thank you to all who wished me happy birthday that day!

peilin (the first to wish me! i was the first to wish her too. )
kirstie
joel
my dad
my mum
yingqi
cynthia
grace
pauline
shiyun
peiyun
shunyi
chunhui
patrina
XJ
filza
cera
timothy su
cheryl gan
ferena
khaz
soo ming
vick
jeremy
wira
crystal
dhanish
kwok sheng
en ming
tanglin
ginny
joanne (senior)
tin hee! (my lecturer. lol)
adelin
suzanne
weishan
ferguson
lawrence
mandric
shuhuan
kellyn
fangqin
samantha zhang
dave

yea. i hope i didnt miss anyone out? lol.
thanks loads for your wishes! haha.

so...
this week has been a super tiring week.
have been sleeping for bout only 2 hrs everyday since monday.
cos of music theory and BUMs. everyday stay up super late just to complete those assignments.
but YAY they are conquered! woohooo!
yest i slept at 7am! can you imagine that. lol
stupid BUMs assignment. haha. wrote a 3000 words essay within a night. spent about 6 hrs on it. omg. really can kill lar.
and i ponned BUMs lesson today. haha! 9 am lehh. if i go den really no need sleep anymore.
so i just slept through it. all the way till 1230 den woke up to go for piano lesson.
was damn horrible lar. my brain was like totally not functioning at all. keep playing wrongly.
it's like my brain not processing what im reading from the score with my hands. damn. i really wanted to smash the piano. HAHA. imagine me flaring up in front of the teacher.
yeaa. so after that went to sch for recording from 4-10. damn tired lar. reached home at 11.
oh mann.
this is like the first time i stayed up all night to complete my work. till 7am! whoa.
haha. hope no more 2nd time.

ok. im going off to bed.
finally can SLEEP!!!!
zzzzzz.

2008-07-14T01:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUI HUI=)
haha. yepps. today's dear chunhui's bdae.
and we surprised her at her hse. lol.
with cake and present! haha.
so fun lar. and guess wad. the first word she said was: OH MAN!
HAHAHAHA! hope you enjoyed ur bdae darling=)

anyways.
yest went to pau's church and before that had dinner with my dear squadmates.
been long time since i met them. love ya all loads.
thanks for the cake=) so nice.
although the price tag was still there. HAHA!
thanks alot alot!
took so many photos. but they'll be uploaded another time.
cos the photos are in my phone and my phone is sent for repair.
love ya all squaddies!
my first cake for my 18th bdae! yay=)
super glad we're still so close after so long.
3013-53. LOVES<3

ok.
im here to blog because im sick of doing music theory.
20th century music is BORING.
so much stuff to read. argh.
driving me nuts.

i miss YOU. you noe.

sucks sucks sucks.

2008-07-11T00:18:00.002+08:00

today is the most sucky day ever.
thanks hui for being there.
haii.
sucks.
right from the moment i opened my eyes everything was alr wrong.
everything.
tin hee scolded our class today for music theory oso.
bloody hell. she's not wrong in saying those stuff.
it's all true. we pissed off such a nice teacher. like WOW.

music theory was like such a torture today.
was fighting so hard to control my emotions.
didnt dare to look at anyone straight in the eye.
was afraid i would just break down any moment.
even tin hee knew sth was wrong with me.
she came into class looked at me and said: what happened to you? you dont seem yourself today.
i didnt even do anything yet. hurr.

den performance i almost burst.
or rather i kinda did. a little. kinda shouted at somebody.
cant remember who. i noe someone asked: sam. how come ur keyboard so soft?
and i kinda shouted back at that person. was it vick or chunhui?
in any case, im sorry to whoever i shouted at.
everyone was blasting their keyboards so loud. couldnt hear any shit we were playing.
wth lar.

first time i kinda really vented my anger so obviously today.
im sorry if i shouted at any of you today ok.
and shun im not angry with you.
it's just not my day today.

2008-07-07T22:59:00.002+08:00

OH MAN.
im super in love with the orange crumpler.
like super super in love.
planning to get one.
money money. i need money!
haha.

enjoyed dinner today.
see you 2 weeks later with my birthday present aye.
LOL.

2008-07-05T01:31:00.003+08:00

ok ok. im not locking anymore.

so many pple asking me why i suddenly lock my blog.

lol. unlock alr. ok?

anyways.

today's relatively a happpy day=)

went to mediacorp and saw the radio stations and tv stations and stuff.

super cool lar.

and my mac and nano has finally arrived!

yay! super happy.

thanks shawn for the help with the mac sutff=)

was talking to hui bout some stuff on the train.

haha. super happy we're sharing the same views.

and we both feel the same bout this matter but dunno why are we like this.

LOL. yes hui. you noe wad im talking bout right.

shhhhhh.

oh! and i fell asleep on the train on the way home and MISSED MY STOP!

haha. when i woke up i was alr heading towards paya lebar.

so dumb lar.

first time ever in my life i missed my stop.

haha.

okok go slp alr.

bye!

2008-06-29T00:45:00.003+08:00

HELLO HELLO.
first week of school was rather ok=)
tired but im still happy.
haha. say im mad but im enjoying this feeling of tired-ness.
woohooo.
assignments are piling up like nobody's business.
it's just increasing and not decreasing. oh man.
now i got........ so many to complete haha.
lets see.

1. REMT 1(recording)
2. REMT 2
3. music theory
4. DVPT
5. MIDI 2
6. MIDI 3
7. BUMS

oh man. and deadlines are drawing nearer and nearer.
AHH~
tests are coming up too! oh no oh no.
LOL.
next week's gonna be a super packed week.
everyday must stay back in sch.
whoa.

haha. ok.
bye!

2008-06-22T01:26:00.002+08:00

haii.
things werent meant to turn out like this.
it was suppose to get better as time goes by.
but it didnt.
it just became worst.

no. please.
can we return back to last time?
can we all stop drifting apart?
all of us. all 6 of us.

i wanna go back to last yr.
when we were still happy together.
when we'd go out together and be happy just to be together.
haii.

almost cried when i talked to vick just now=(
haii.

2008-06-21T01:32:00.003+08:00

HELLO! WELCOME!
haha. arent you glad u made it in here? cos ure one of the lucky ones i choose to invite to view my blog. LOL.
BE HONOURED!
say i love you sam. you are the best.
wooooo~

wads that highness for.... haha..
OH WELLS.

sch's starting on monday!
damn.
hope i dont have gems on wed.
PLEASE. NO GEMS.
and pray that i can book the studio.
or else im dead. no time to record my song!
haha.

ok. yea. congrats for being invited here YOU.
whoever who is reading this post now.
LOL.

2008-06-18T18:29:00.003+08:00

yayy.
i tink i found my direction in DMAT=)
im gonna work towards being an ARTISTE MANAGER or isit called liaison?
but like what xiaoshuang does. (if u noe who she is that is.)
yayyyy.
so happy.
whoots!
u tink can get itp for that?
lol. doubt so tho.

but now...
i need to find out more bout that job.
hmmm.
so hard to find lar.
internet hardly has anything bout it.

2008-06-17T02:35:00.004+08:00

argh.
i thought bout it for so long.
and i realised ur attitude changed.
like all of a sudden.
you werent like this b4.
haiz.
wad can i do.
tell me.
wad.
i thought we were good friends...
maybe i thought wrong.
but oh wells.
ure leaving soon anyways.
doubt we're gonna be in contact after u leave.
haiz.. another good friend lost...

anyways. im in love with this song. haha!
恋上一个人
恋上一个人
就容易失了神
曾经为爱流的泪
乾了又为爱心疼
我的痴
我的真
要给多少才完整
只怕你不懂
我这样的人
非要等到爱远走分两头
才知道多舍不你走
留在午夜梦回醉
掏了心伤心对自己说
非要等到爱远走分两头
才知道谁都怕寂寞
一直有句话要说
你是我今生今世的守候

2008-06-16T00:16:00.002+08:00

woohooo.
reached home at 11 just now!
haha. had barbecue and my cousin's hse just now.
and i watched incredible tales!
OMG.
i tink tonight sure cannot slp.
anyone wanna accompany me?
LOL.

today went to see doc for my ankle.
haha. cos i sprained it like bout 3 weeks ago?
and it hasnt healed.
was damn painful lar.
the doc said my ankle injury led to my back oso injured.
hmm. den she do my back. omg.
i was biting my hand. haha!

anyways. today damn tired.
cos yest slept at 630 and this morning woke up at 830.
2 hrs of slp!
all because of somebody.....HUHHH...
next time i cannot slp i sure go bug you.
LOL.

2008-06-14T15:52:00.003+08:00

i am bored...
haha.
at my dad's office now. and using his comp=)
little boss. LOL.

anyways.
been running to the toilet so many times today.
until i dont feel like moving anymore.
blahhhh.
sucks lar.
save meeeeeeeeeee.
argh.

stomach feels so uncomfortable=(
and no appetite.
and headache.
arghhhhh.
so tired lar...

2008-06-11T02:31:00.002+08:00

REMT is pissing me off.
RAHHHHHHH.

do one stupid demo do so long.
bloody demo.
and my song sucks. seriously.
sound like shit.
i got no talent for composing=(
ARGHHHH.

now i dunno whether should i go out tmr or go back sch to complete my demo.
squadmates or assignment?
BLOODY DEMO.

2008-06-09T22:51:00.000+08:00

should i continue???
should i should i???
ahhhh.

tell me tell me tell me.
HOW.
yes?
no?

2008-06-05T22:49:00.003+08:00

today is such a tiring day.
shag shag shag.
assignments are driving everyone nuts. haiz.
stressful larr.
went out with ginny just now. had dinner and chatted for quite awhile. can see she's pretty stress. haiz.

kept stoning away today.
really just stone lar. haha.
like just totally live in my own world that kind.
maybe i was just tired. maybe.....
i was kinda feeling awful just now. tried hard not to show it. probably thats why i kept stoning.

ginny said i changed. hmmm.
she said i dont look like the cheerful sam she knew last yr anymore. i look so moody and troubled.
hmmm. i do?
oh wells....
i dont deny things dont seem as happy as last yr anymore.
so many things.
it's just... i dont wanna say thats all...

2008-06-03T23:10:00.005+08:00

im lazy to type anything.
but today's a fun day.
laughed non-stop during dinner lol.
lets go out again together=)
ok. pictures shall talk today.

GRADUATION 2008=)

ferguson. BROTHER YOOO!
haha.

SQ!

shermian=)

AFIQ!

CJ.

shawn!

shawn and vick.
whee. firefox besties.

teck chau.

adrian. he came to steal food only. LOL.

DMAT! with michael spicer=)

LOVES.

an attempt to act cute. LOL.

haha. BEAR BEAR=)

XING GUANG 8 BAN. lol.
I LOVE THEM LOADS.

besties.

shun KORKOR.
LOL. small eye boy.

HOW COOL IS THIS.
i love this picture=)

ROCKERRRRRR.

2008-05-31T01:00:00.003+08:00

wah.
i reached home at 12am today.
oh my. haha.

today is a happy day generally. lol.
BUMS was fun. chat over coffee and tea aye. we had lesson in fc6. how cool is dat?
HAHA.
had piano lesson after that. was kinda sleepy during lesson. haha. but managed to survive through successfully. lol. except my scales were kinda screwed up cos i was so tired i couldnt co-ordinate my 2 hands. damn it. LOL.

after that came home to change and met mr S for dinner. (haha. i follow chunhui. mr X)
haha. chatted for a super long time bout so much stuff. esp MMR aye. lol. ok stop toking bout the MMR kae. stupid person. HAHA. opps.
but anyways. had fun during dinner=) must meet more often ok ok ok. lol.
and we walked from orchard to bugis. OH MY. altho i really didnt noe where i was walking. haha. just followed. yea.
den took train home. was so afraid i'll miss the last train. haha.
den reached home at 12 lor.

this whole week ive been coming home super late.
bad bad bad. AND ive been going to marina square so often. mon-thurs EVERYDAY GO MARINA SQUARE. oh my.
lucky today nv go there. ahaha.
this week is a super happy week.
performance for graduation was fun altho kinda screwed up. haha.
took lotsa photos! yay! shall post it when i get it.
gonna miss those pple who graduated. must come back to SP more often!
LOL.

ok. gonna end here.
tired.

2008-05-28T00:26:00.003+08:00

whoots.
i just reached home bout an hr ago?
haha.
tmr's performance for the graduation ceremony! woohoo!
but still feel kinda not prepared. like we really got not enough time to practice!!!
haha. hope everything goes well tmr=)

anyways. just now went out for dinner with shawn. lol.
cos i owe him a treat. but ended up i dont tink i treated him. we both paid 30 bucks. freaking ex lar. for one dinner. haha. but nvm lar ONCE IN AWHILE MAH. haha. as what he claims. LOL.
it was nice talking to him. yea he's a nice friend=) thanks for listening.

lol. after dinner we were bout to WALK to orchard road but met adelin samantha wong and suzanne over at marina so end up we went to eat desert together. haha! only 4 of us lar. suzanne left first. walked pass gelare and suddenly remembered today is tuesday!! got half price!!! YAY.
so we went there to eat lar. haha. den talk for super long time.
samantha and adelin damn funny lar. both of them damn cute pls. lol
after that left with adelin and samantha. cos we're all easterners! yay. was laughing away in the train. adelin damn funny. im serious. she's super funny. HAHAHA.
yea. had fun today=)

OH OH. thanks for the present. LOL
YOU. yes YOU. SKSE. if you happen to be reading this.
YAR YOU. you're the only one who gave me present. HAHA.
yes YOU know who im talking bout. lol.
it's super cute.
THANKSSSS=)

P.S dont try guessing who lar. it's not who u tink it is. HAHA.

2008-05-24T00:39:00.011+08:00

Been a long time since I really updated whats happening around me ehh.
LOL.
Finally im in a typing long story mood. So be prepared for a long long post=)
But lotsa photos too!

FIRST PERFORMANCE (last last week’s event?)

Yepp.
Our first performance for performance module was held at Moberly for its opening.

It was a super fun event I tink. Enjoyed playing on stage and watching other classmates perform too=) esp vick’s cello playing. It’s so OMG. Seriously you’ll just fall in love with him just by watching him play. Don’t see he always crazy crazy. Once he play his cello it’s like OMG. That’s so not vick anymore. He looks so serious and ahhhh ATTRACTIVE. (lol. Do I sound like im in love with him? Wahaha. . YES HE’S MY BESTEST FRIEND aka bear)
But im not the only one lar. go ask any other DMATers they’ll sure tell you the same thing.
Oh oh oh. So many smit pple was dere. Which makes it even more scary. At first I only saw them when chunhui was performing then after her group al the smit pple were gone so I thought they’ve gone home or sth and wont be coming back. Who noes just before my group was going up ALL OF THEM came back. OMG lar. Was damn nervous. Haha. Trembling away. Good thing the keys don’t shake. Wahaha. So no one noes my hands were trembling like nobody’s business. I swear my hands were literally shaking. HAHA.

But performing is fun=)
Went out for dinner with bout half the class after that. Had fun chatting and hanging around with the cool bunch of peepsJ

Last Saturday was string ensemble’s camp. Haha. Was kinda sick but still went for it lar. Had a hard time trying to teach the camp song cos apparently I was the only one in the room who really knew all the songs so I was shouting my lungs out. Haha. Was at the brink of losing my voice alr. Luckily Arthur came in to help. Haha. The camp was fun=)

OH. Ferguson stayed over as well and I sprained my ankle after night walk. All because of cockroaches. Damn those stupid cockroaches lar. Ferg went to kick the toilet door at T15 and SO MANY MANY MANY of them starting crawling about. I happened to shine the torch on the floor and really screamed my head off. HAHA. Chunhui told me my scream almost killed the rest of them cos me and grace ran down the stairs then chunhui peiyun and joel ran up the stairs. HAHA. I tink only ferg was left there. While running down the stairs I kinda stepped on a step thing sth like those small drains and my ankle was sprained. I COULD FEEL MY ANKLE BEND. So I knew it was a goner. Haha.

But it wasn’t that bad at first so I thought maybe it wasn’t injured afterall so I just continued walking an even ran to the casualty over at fc 5. he really sprained his ankle badly there. Haha. But I was limping away alr lar. Then I treated that freshie and sent him back to bunk. After that my ankle became really bad. It was damn painful lar. But it didn’t swell so I didn’t expect it to be so badly sprained.

After that we went to the dance studio and tried to get some sleep but my ankle was so painful I couldn’t sleep at all. And I was feeling really sick that night oso. Couldn’t breathe cos my nose was blocked badly. Haha. So I didn’t sleep lar. Until vick came in at around 6 or 7 plus? He so nice lar. Come help me massage my ankle. LOL. Was really tired in the morning and managed to fall asleep for bout ½ hr. then I gave up sleeping cos my ankle was really damn painful and I was feeling so sick. Haha. Luckily it was a 2D1N camp. Was limping very badly the next morning lar. Had such a hard time traveling home. When I reached home I finally iced it and bandaged it up and went to sleep. And guess wad. When I woke up my ankle was so swollen. that was when I realized how badly sprained it was, so I couldn’t walk at all on Sunday.

Luckily by Monday it was a lot better=)

TUESDAY

Haha. Nth much happened bah. Just stayed back to practice our zong zai wo shen pang. Hmm. Some unhappy things happened lar. But cheer up hui=) u have ur talents too ok! It’s a matter of whether uve realized it or not. And if you can get into this course means you have what it takes. So don’t think too much. We’re always here to help you! Even though i cant teach but still I’ll try my best to help you ok. Don’t worry! We’ll progress together=)

WEDNESDAY.

Haiz. Wednesday was generally an ok day. Until………hais.....
Im not gonna say what happened but to those who noes what happened just keep it to yourself. Those who don’t. don’t ask ok=) I really hate that incident. Really hate it to the core of the core. It just spoiled the entire day for me and made me totally shut down after that.

BUT I was glad I went to tampines to meet my dearest squadmates=)
They really brightened up everything and made me forget the unhappiness for that short period of time we were together. LOVE YA LOADS 3013-53. squadmates forever=)

Went home and finally broke down while bathing. Guess wad. I controlled the tears for 4 hrs. really controlled. I so wanted to break down on the spot when the thing happened but I knew I couldn’t cos things would turn ugly. So I reached home and really couldn’t stand it anymore. I was really scared. Really really terrified. It was a kind of fear I dunno how to describe. And I dunno what I was scared of. Things just suddenly became wrong. Everything just took a wrong turn and now it’s not gonna turn back. It’s hard.

That day I so wanted to talk to ***** but he was overseas. I really really wanted to call him but I couldn’t. I was feeling so lost and scared. Then I came online and vick grace chunhui and ***** wasn’t online. Damn. I really felt I was totally alone. So when chunhui’s name finally popped out on msn my tears just flowed like it was never gonna stop. Cried for almost an hr. really cried my heart out. Was so afraid my parents could hear me from outside lar.

Thanks hui for talking to me online=)
And especially to vick who immediately called me after I msged him. That was super sweet of you=)
I really felt so protected after talking to both of them. LOVE YA LOADS=)

THURSDAY

Haha. Nothing much bah. Was still kinda suffering from what happened on Wednesday. Gave vick a huge hug during lesson when he came and ask me if I was ok. Was really touched by what he did lar. Yes it was just a phone call. But it was a phone call so important to me that day. THANKS A LOT A LOT VICK=)

During performance I almost broke down again. Was trying so hard to hold back my tears. I swear if anyone was to come and ask me if I was ok at that point of time I would definitely have broke down.
Or at least even till now. When I tink bout it I still feel scared and can just break down any time. AHHH. Im trying hard to not think bout it. Yes. Im trying. Very very hard.

I dunno why but everytime in school I’ll be super afraid to be alone. It’s just that fear inside me but i dunno how to describe how i exactly feel. just super scared. It sucks to feel like this.
But at least I noe my friends are always there for me=)

Vick, grace, chunhui….. I just feel so safe around with them.
Glad to have you in my life. Really. Love you all to bits=)

FRIDAY

Yepps. Today is a happy day! Haha. Jimmy jap’s lesson was cancelled so which means I don’t hafta go sch today! Haha. Woke up at 12. wooohoooo.

But went to school for our performance practice then went to shun’s hse to celebrate his birthday. Haha. Had fun haning around wth our classmates and watching them throw shun into the swimming pool. Haha. Small boy. And he went round hugging everyone. Making everyone wet. LOL.
Left his place at 11+ and shared a cab home with grace and peiyun=)

And finally here I am typing all these.
That’s seriously a long long post. LOL.

PHOTO TIME!

filza!

yayys=) all same wallpaper.

dearest squadmates. not all tho=)

shhh. secret lar.

YAY

US AGAIN=)

act cute. haha.

PERFORMANCE DAY

bo cheng and grace

joannes gace us these flowers!

xiao xiong! LOL

sihao

henry. YO RYDER!

wira and hui

shun! i like this picture alot=)

YAY MY DEAR BEAR=) VICK!!

yes. he's that attractive. LOL

SHUN. he just had to show he was taller than me.
AND he's not exactly that tall in real life ok.

shun and vick.
i dunno what were they trying to do lar. HAHA.

joel and peilin

crystal

huihui

hui and grace

ahhh. save the bear!

LOVELIES=)

heh.

peilin

grace ALIEN

peiyun

joel

YAY. i did this photo myself. the loves of my life=)
love it loads.
it's my wallpaper now.
dont haf jeremy's photo. but i'll add it in once i get a photo of me and him=)

hey..
if u survived reading all the way till here.
i must say you were really patient.

2008-05-21T22:48:00.002+08:00

argh.
i seriously feel like crying now.
damn it.

why must you be overseas now when i want to talk to you so badly.
=(((((
come back. quick.
come back=((((

vick. where are you.
chunhui. where are you.
grace. where are you.
*****. COME BACK NOW NOW NOW.

AHHHHHHHHH.
damn.
im crying as im typing all this.
=(((((((((((((

im really really scared.
where are all of you.

2008-05-16T23:19:00.006+08:00

we are drifting apart.
we are. alot. the feeling of CLOSE just isnt there anymore.
everything seems to be so surfaced. argh.
and i dont like it when ure forcing urself to do things just cos ure afraid i will feel awkward or wad.
why cant things just be normal?
dont do it if u dont like.
it's like ure doing it just for the sake of doing it.
it defeats the purpose.
u end up making both parties unhappy.
i noe u were just trying to help.
but i can see u arent happy in the process of it.
and i dont like to see that. really. it's fine if u really dowan to do it.

u noe.
i always feel so out of place together with the group of you.
it's like im dere just because XX person is my friend.
and like XX is the main character and it doesnt even matter if i come along or not.
im just asked along out of courtesy.
maybe if one day i just suddenly go missing halfway while with the bunch of you no one would even realise i was gone.
im trying hard to join u all as often as i can.
im trying hard not to drift away from you you and you
but i noe some things just isnt possible if only one party sees the prob
haiz. there are just too many things i wanna say.
i dunno how to type it out either.
why are things becoming liddat.

so many events had happened.
shall update in detail another time. together with photos ok!
haha. today no mood to do all this uploading stuff.
been sick since tuesday. kuku-ded.
and having bad cramps today. sucks lar.
suddenly got very very serious cramps. been long since i last had cramps this bad.
dunno why.

2008-05-08T23:42:00.003+08:00

woohoo.
so long nv update. miss me?
haha.

nothing fantastic happened so far. and im too lazy to blog in detail either.
LOL. school's as usual nothing much lar. wednesdays and thursdays are still equally dreadful.
damn the stupid DVPT module. excuse me? we're DMAT not DDM why are we doing all this DDM stuff. eeyer. i so hate drawing!

today went for dinner with weishan and chunhui. haha. laughed non-stop lar. weishan's damn cute and funny. and i realised he's actually a very nice person to talk to. a nice friend=) but really. i was damn tired from all the laughing. but it was an enjoyable dinner. haha.
oh yea. actually i promised to go shun's hse with grace and all but ended up i couldnt make it cos last minute i had to go get the black shirt for tmr's performance attire. im so sorry shun and grace! i noe i already promised you but i really had no choice cos i really really needed to get the shirt cos performance is tmr. next time ok? promise.

anyways.
just wanna say some stuff to some pple.
chunhui and grace: heyhey. im super glad to have both of you by my side all these while and for lsitening to all my problems or wadeva. love you girls alot alot. and really im not blaming you to for the way ure treating that person but it's just weird. if you understand wad i mean? like just put urself in my shoes lar. it's really weird. but thanks for ur understanding and the effort u all are making. till now. i still cant make up my decision and all those things that i told you are just based on my feelings and feelings change. so....... yea. but really thanks alot alot alot=)

and you xiaobai: haha. thanks for all those stuff that you did so far. i realised you did alot and ive yet to even say a word of thanks. so THANKS ALOT. for the surprise, for the chocolates, for waiting after sch, for walking with me to g***, for sending me home, for chatting with me till so late just cos i dont feel like going home, for always trying to cheer me up when im down, for msging until both our phones no batt, for the care and concern when im not feeling well and for everything that uve done so far=) it's greatly appreciated!

oh. and shawn for talking to me bout the person=) haha.

tag replies:

jiawei- hello! life's been normal. haha. u cheer up kae=)

Mr.J- hey. huan ying guang ling. LOL

hui: wey. i nv liddat hor. only grace so boliao. haha.

2008-04-30T23:00:00.003+08:00

went out for dinner with grace hui shun and timothy today.
lol. weird combi of pple? i tink so too. WAHAHA. but they are all nice pple and i was glad it didnt feel awkward=)
but oh wells.
i hope ure alright grace. dont be sad yar.
i love you loads.

oh yea.
thanks shawn for ur jacket. and for rushing down to school.
i owe u a treat=)
really thanks alot.

TAG REPLIES!

pufferfish: haha. welcome back again. i nv emo lar=)

hui, shinnystar, LOL: thanks alot!

Alpha: hey! why so many sams? my name nice right. lol. u meant the picture in my post isit? we were at PS pizza hut=)

sometimes i really wonder whether i should.
but the ans somehow always turns out to be a 'i dunno'
when will i get a definite ans?

2008-04-28T23:26:00.003+08:00

sometimes all i ever need is just a person with a listening ear. patience. seriousness.
and someone whom i can really discuss my problems with.

i really mean a good friend who listens.
just listen. and really listen.
then just keep everything to urself.
isit that hard?

i gave u THAT MANY hints.
but u got none.

photo time!

2008-04-27T00:35:00.004+08:00

photos!
we took these while celebrating sihao's bdae last thurs!

oliver gaying around with sihao. LOL

yay! dmat!

i love this picture=)

shunyi. oliver. sihao

henry. bocheng. wira

grace. chunhui

peiyun. ME!

MUSIC is my world

2008-04-24T23:49:00.003+08:00

woohoo. im super tired today.
almost fell asleep even during performance class.
imagine that? LOL.

after school went out with 2A02 peeps=)
haha. after being in the same class for a year. we finally go out together.
not all tho(only got shunyi, oliver, bocheng, henry, wira, sihao, chunhui, grace, peiyun and me!) but at least those whom we hardly hang out with. and i realised they are a nice bunch of friends. chatted with each other till quite late. haha. all about music music music. really enjoyed it. shared so many stuff. AND seriously i didnt noe shun was this kinda person. haha. he's a nice guy. really nice. and talented too=) his guitar skills are superb! i wanna learn guitar from him!! LOL.
see what happens when a bunch of DMATers go out? everything is about music. we went to sembawang music store. den hanged out at yamaha playing guitars and keyboards. after that went to foodcourt to chat. it was fun chatting with them.

im gonna practice my piano well=)

oh yea.
CHEER UP ZEN!
dont so sad buddy!

just read lar.

2008-04-23T21:38:00.002+08:00

had quite a long chat with my mum last night. kinda told her everything that was happening in school so far and talked to her bout alot of things like how i felt i changed ever since FOC and all the unhappy things thats going on around me. haha. heart to heart talk ehh=)
and i was tinking about lotsa things just now while bathing haha and suddenly thot bout what she told me last night. it really did make sense after all. LOL (yest i was still tinking that she's just being old fashioned and stuff) but just now i realised what she said was true. im really minimizing my chances by doing this. but then again. im not the one who started it. i mean. im just a victim. oh wells. lets just let nature take its course. god has his plans for everyone=) everything is happening for a reason. right?

ah wells.
super glad to haf such a great and nice mum=)
YAY. I LOVE YOU MAMA.
esp when we can talk about anything under the sun. seriously anything and everything. and she gives good advice as well. hoho. im glad i dont hafta hide all this from her. cos she's understanding=)

我宁愿自己不开心我也不要看到朋友伤心~

sometimes. sammie isnt the all-so-cheerful sammie u see.
deep down inside is a broken heart waiting to be repaired=(
it's just that i havent found the one who will repair that heart thats all.
有时候外表越坚强的人越希望受到保护. 只是还没遇到那个给她安全感的人而已.

2008-04-20T22:58:00.002+08:00

haiz.
so many things happened last night.
cried a few times.
HAIYO.

i slept at 5am. and woke up at 930am this morning=(
ARGH.

and thanks to whoever who talked to me on the phone last night=)
2 of you. haha.
helped alot. really. thanks=)

2008-04-20T01:08:00.004+08:00

why cant we just interact like normal friends?
it's getting very irritating. and tiring.
and dont u realise we got nothing to talk about?
because all we do is "argue"
everytime we see each other we start disturbing each other.
haiz.
i dont tink it's fun at all. it's irritating. really.
so stop it.
it's not getting my attention. it's just pushing me away from you.
if you are sensitive enough to realise.

不是我不给你机会
是你自己不要给自己制造机会
是你自己把我推开
i tried.

我很想爱他

2008-04-19T22:51:00.002+08:00

twins -我很想爱他

天空下起雨了
他撑的伞在你身边陪着
可是我不快乐
因为看见他脸上的笑是很勉强的
我很想爱他
但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答
爱情是模糊的
可怜的是没有勇气选择
如果再舍不得
这样下去
我们每个人都是受害者
我很想爱他
但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答

it kinda describes how i feel.
dont try to guess who lar.

crusaders outing!

2008-04-18T23:42:00.004+08:00

woohoo.
today school ended at 1030! lol.
was suppose to end at 1130 but jimmyjap let us off early. and im looking forward to learning more bout business of music. it's interesting to noe bout the copyright stuff. cos it seriously helps u earn money if u noe how to protect ur work. HAHA.

anyways.
went fc4 for lunch after that cos chunhui grace and peiyun got gems. he met us for lunch too.
after that they all go gems den i alone but timothy came to find me den we decided to go club. and met denise there:)
after that i was about 2 sleep when suddenly 2 irritating pple pissed me off cos they suddenly shouted. damn it. i wasnt feeling well the whole day cos i got cramps. damn the stupid cramps. of all times to get cramps purposely fall on TODAY when i going out:(
anyways. i was rotting in club lar until chunhui ended her gems. den after that we headed to vivocity le. had loadsa fun just hanging around with the dear crusaders=)
after that went to watch movie lor. 33 of us go watch movie together! how cool is dat? we fill almost half the cinema i tink. HAHAHA. damn cool.
thank you for the chocs! it did help make me feel better after a whole day of cramps:) so sweet of you.

reached home at 11pm
bathed and here i am:)
lorries of love to the crusaders. a lovely bunch of friends.
IMBA!

tired.

2008-04-16T22:37:00.004+08:00

it's only the 3rd day of school.
and im like totally drained. haiz.
just now i just merely lied on the bed for awhile and i realised i was fast asleep. haha!
damn tired.

had piano early in the morning at 8am lar. cos my school lesson started at 10am.
haiz. cannot sleep late still. but anyways i reached school damn early today! i reached at 930 lor. despite me walking extremely slow. i thot i was gonna fall asleep walking. HAHA.

midi was boring as usual. after midi den no more class le. except for gems. wanted to pon actually but heard them say first lesson usually will let off early so might as well just go. so i went lor. he walked to t2 with us. lol. cos i told him i dunno how to go. den he volunteer bring me there cos he got no lesson alr. thank you.
haha. after gems went back club cos got meeting mah. den was slacking in club with zen and xj while waiting for the meeting to start. den yar lor. the meeting was.............no comments....... but haiz. disappointing.
after meeting i stayed in club for quite awhile. weishan was damn entertaining. lol. den we played zhong ji mi ma. HAHA loser had to eat this smelly thing dat weishan brought back from taiwan. it seriously stinks. LOL. after that went home lor. he took train home with me cos i was alone! all the way to aljunied from dover! haha. den HE take bus 100 home. TO SERANGOON. damn far lar. haha. thank you again. lol.

feel so tired.
i want to sleep!

2008-04-15T23:48:00.001+08:00

fine.
i'll just hide.

ahhhhh.
why nowadays my post all so depressing!
no no no. must get out of this whole emo shit.
cheer up sammie=)

最后的风度

2008-04-14T23:07:00.002+08:00

i will forget.
forget all that happened.
forget i even met you.
but i still hope we're good friends.
argh.
this song suits my exact feeling now.
it's on my playlist. u can go listen. just scroll down.

罗志祥-最后的风度

没有人介入
所有人觉得你该满足
我把心血全都付出
你为何想要哭

为你作主
让你受到我的保护
可是你像受苦
到底是谁难以相处

我给你幸福
你问我什么才是幸福
这个问题反而让我
把你看个清楚

你怕束缚
我的爱没能把你驯服
你没有退路
那倒不如爽快结束

就让你见识我的风度
你离开我要不要庆祝
我不怕爱的残酷
反正我很想跳舞

我最喜欢挑战孤独
我也爱放下包袱
没有谁我也不舍得哭
我我不在乎

你觉得痛苦
我倒不愿意为爱受苦
只有这样我才做到
对你的背叛宽恕

想你幸福
想不到分手你才幸福
是谁的错误
我不认输我忍得住

就让你识我的风度
你离开我要不要庆祝
我不怕爱的残酷
反正我很想跳舞

我最喜欢挑战孤独
我也爱放下包袱
没有谁我也不舍得哭
我没有空在乎

就让你见识我的风度
我忍痛温柔的祝福
你会一生都记住
我要你铭心刻骨

我最喜欢挑战孤独
我也爱放下了包袱
没有谁没难度我最怕哭
爱要爱得投入
却不在乎

有种失恋的感觉

2008-04-13T22:28:00.001+08:00

或许我们只能当一辈子的好朋友。

我祝福你们=)

2008-04-13T00:55:00.009+08:00

yooo.
haiz. today feel so moody the whole day.
maybe i do feel a little affected after knowing it. haiz.
why?
if only wad YOU thought was true. really.
ah wells~

anyways. yest went out with timo, chicken little and chunhui.
haha. went to watch movie and just hang out lar. last day of holidays anyways.
had fun just playing around with each other. and the 3 of them keep ganging up to bully me.
see lar. this kinda friend. one ahbeng one chicken. and another..........TOFU.
OMG. wad kinda friends do i haf. HAHA.

lovely friends=)

went to watch run papa run.
the show was ok i tink. i expected it to be super touching but didnt turn out touching after all.
i thot i would be sobbing away in the cinema. haha.
after that went for dinner. went to my dreaded place LONG JOHN SILVER.
they purposely choose that place. alr said i dont like BUT i so nice sacrifice for them.
seriously i dunno why i dislike long john so much. HAHA.
after that we all took bus home. lol. den walk home with timo lor.
yea.

and today went for bowling.
but somehow my heart and mind seems to be wandering off at somewhere.
just wasnt concentrating. haiz.

was just hoping..... if only u knew

and i found my piano to be a great dumping ground.
i meant dumping ground for feelings. haha.
it just takes away all ur troubles and unhappiness when ure banging away at the piano.
but the emptiness comes back once u stop playing. haiz.
i love my piano=)

suddenly listening to xiaozhu's 最后的风度 makes me wanna cry.
就讓你見視我的風度,我忍痛溫柔地祝福

pictures=)

2008-04-10T23:28:00.008+08:00

pictures pictures=)

timothy and ericson keeps trying to imitate this picture.

timothy's attempt (failed horribly)

ericson's attempt( equally fail)

i take you. you take me?

night b4 FOC

zen was wearing my specs. night b4 FOC again.

me and jiawei!

me and ikhwan! our dear event chair=)

me and chunhui!

me and desmond(brother!)

me and timothy su

me and timothy again. but clearer. lol

me and shafiq!

i was playing around with timothy's shoes during camp. LOL

chunhui. denise. melody and me!

NIGHTWALK PREPARATION!

me and chicken little(xuanjun)

me and jiawei

me and jingying

(night b4 FOC) dats melody under the mask.

(night b4 FOC) dats zen under the mask he look damn funny with that mask lar. i keep laughing non-stop
HAHA.

me and denise. after makeup for night walk

me and vick

me and hongboon

FOP

2008-04-08T22:21:00.002+08:00

you or you?
i dunno either. oh wells.
i finally understand the statement 你宁愿当一次他的男（女）朋友，还是当他一辈子的好朋友

lalala.
today went for FOP and i was super late. haha.
blame the driver? lol TIMOTHY SU! haha ok lar. it was shafiq who was late. hoho.
i was early lor!
anyways. the whole spice training thing was crap lar. damn stupid i dunno wad to teach.
but it's over anyways. lalala~

after that went for lunch with timo, shawn, damien, junyi, shafiq and HUI! haha. timo drove=)
went all the way to maxwell lor. haha. lucky timo's car big enough for so many pple. whoots!
after that went back school for FOR meeting. but halfway me and feiwen left cos....... ah wells.
maybe u noe maybe u dont. good if u do=)
shant disclose wad and where were we but was together with a great bunch of pple=)
CRUSADERS. love ya to bits.

after that most pple went off bah. den hui had to go for strings meeting so i was left alone=(
den i went off with timo shawn ericson and junyi. cant believe i acually went for dinner with them! first time i go out with smit pple without hui. OMG. congrats sammie! went to eat claypot at lavender dere. i only ate a little lar. den after that went for desert. damn nice=)
den timo fetch me home first b4 they go meet shafiq. LOL.

haiz.
sometimes. i just hate secrets.

sick.

2008-04-06T23:18:00.002+08:00

damn. i tink i got fever.
argh. and tmr need go school.
meeting timothy and shafiq at aljunied at 915.
hope i wont be late.
oh wells.

headaching away~~~~
chicken little's in thailand! and he msged me at 6am in the morning-.-
haha. hope he's having fun! msn seems alot quieter without that chicken pok kehing around. LOL.

been feeling kinda rotten.
i seemed to have neglected my friends because of smit.
im sorry=(

2008-04-06T11:43:00.003+08:00

i just posted the details bout prep camp. haha. scroll down 2 post to see the details.
not gonna be updating as detailed for actual camp cos the activities are the same. so just roughly wad we went through bah=)

went into camp on sunday night and prepared our nightwalk stuff till quite late before we managed to get some sleep. and the next morning we went to fc4 for breakfast. didnt eat much cos no appetite. then afternoon came the freshies! it was damn funny to see the catalysts coming down the staris'lift trying to act dumb. HAHA. cute tho.

first day was mainly station games and night walk but i guess the freshies were still stranger to each other so the station games were kinda alright. went smoothly and successfully so not much of a trouble. then came the night walk at night which was damn cool. much more successful than prep camp. haha. i heard alot of pple break down at the front. LOL. imagine we ended our night walk at 4+ when there are bout 80+ freshies yet we ended ournightwalk during prepcamp at 5+ when there were only 16 GLs. WHOA. imagine the number of pple who broke down. had fun telling stupid jokes with chickenlittle, xanthus, hui and jingying before the walk started. haha. really dumb jokes.

second day was amazing race. was supposed to be stationed at my dear merlion here but it rained so we were moved to suntec. haha. had fun running along with them while they go round taking photos. amazing race went rather well. haha. the condom blowing station was the best! haha. and their shields were all stolen at that station. oh yea and timothy opened a last station at wheelock. counting and counting random stuffs. haha. it's cool how they manage to work out the number of cones so fast. whoa. smart crusaders. and the freshies were damn cute. trying tocount the tiles one by one. HAHA. then went back schol and had dinner and somehow i just dunno why suddenly my emotions just poured out like never b4. it seems all the feeling bottled up since prep camp just exploded. haiz. but it's all over anyways. and sorry timothy for holding back the programme!
after that was battle royale. but i tink the freshies were too tired to be running about round the whole school after amazing race that morning so everyone was kinda restless. thanks chicken little for the encouraging msg=)
oh yes! i called yingqi the time when i felt i was gonna break down. thanks for being there! haiz. otherwise i tink i would haf died in the camp. thanks for the encouragement! and all you other dear aquaddies! i will stay striong=) and yingqi pls dont do this again. coming down to dover so late all alone is not safe ok. make me worry for your safety! but i was seriously touched when i saw you.

third day was sentosa! most fun part of the camp. haha. everyone was burnt burnt burnt. LOL.
set off early in he morning to sentosa and had loadsa fun at the games there but i tink the best part was the waitng for freshies to come time. haha. just the short period of time hanging out with crusaders and playing in the water. LOL. esp when u haf 2 great entertainers like zen and CL. HAHAHA.at the end of the day everyone was so tired. LOL. went back school changed and had dinner. den went back bunk to rest for awhile b going for shim night and disco night. had great fun there and i never see chunhui so high b4! haha. really damn high during disco night.

den last day did nothing much. haha. woke up at 12! omg. den wrote the testimonials thing and was ready to go home! debrief was kinda saddening at some part but it ended happily still. went home tht day at 1130! damn late. slept till the next day 1pm den had to go shool for the spice training.

haha. really had lotsa fun during the camp.
I LOVE CRUSADERS! IMBA!
yayyyyyy=)

SMIT FOC!

2008-04-04T22:44:00.002+08:00

yes. back from camp yest.
it's a camp worth remembering and im glad i hung on to it.
im glad i didnt give up halfway. im glad i didnt give up on smit.

not in the mood to type long post now but i'll come back to update bout the whole camp!
ahhaha.
yest break camp le den went for dinner at clementi. wanted to share cab home from sch with timothy su at first den he say why not go eat dinner den go home so i tot ok lor. den end up oso nv take cab! we took train home. haha. dumb lar.went home with timo desmond and shafiq. den talked about camp on the way. LOL.
den timothy alighted at aljunied with me and he walked me home. haha. thanks eh GM!
next time must ask him fetch me go sch if he drive. lol. got shun feng ce! woohoo~

and im proud to say im a crusader=)

you have stolen my heart.
dont go away.

prep camp details!

2008-03-29T02:38:00.003+08:00

yay! back from prep camp yest.
altho not as bad as i expected but still felt kinda lonely there without hui and jingying.
HUI PLS GO FOR ACTUAL CAMP!

anyways. i shall update bout the camp=)
feel that alot of us changed after the camp. changed for the better?

day 1
supposed to report or camp at 11am but we met at 10am in case pple late mah. so that we wont kena punished for being late. and we reported early! yay! den brought alot alot of stuff from clubroom to t19. kena scolded for not helping the others walking at the back. den went back to rock climbing area again and kena punishment lorr. hmmm. den we had a run through of the station games. cant really remember wad happened ler. only the talk with the seniors we had at night. haha. it was a good way to solve problems i guess. we really voiced out how we felt about each other and told each other right into the face. and also about how we felt about the OCs cos alot of us were rather unhappy with them. and we promised to start anew after stepping out of the room that night. haha. had dinner rather late. the whole talk thing lasted till 9 plus. went for dinner at clementi den went back and walked out night walk route. LOL. so fun! cant really remember le lar. we slept at around 3 plus anyways. and i didnt really sleep lar. cos block nose den cannot breathe and i was tinking if i really slept the next morning sure damn tired cos only 3 hrs of sleep. so might as well not sleep. denise didnt sleep at all.

day 2
wake up super early cos had PT. and i survived the PT! whoa. after a whole year of no PT i actually still survived it. but only one exercise i was kinda afraid to do cos i scared of my back injury thing. the lift leg thing and crunches BUT shawn say if dont do den do half squat OF COURSE I RATHER DO THE EXERCISE LAR half squat even more straining of the back. den i heck care just do it. lucky nth happened. after that went for breakfast and the GLs arrived le=)
after that was station games. and we get to tekan the GLs. YAY! thats the best thing about being a GP=) at night we had battle royale! was looking forward to that game alot. haha. but i tink too little pple playing lar so was not that fun but the whole idea was good=) den went to sleep ler. had a longer sleep that night cos next day was gonna be a tiring day.

day3
woke up at 8 when we were suppose to wake up at 9. haha. cos we thot we were suppose to gather at 9 I TINK. kinda orgot wad time we suppose to get up but anyway i noe we woke up 1hr earlier. haha. den we had breakfast and started preparing for amazing race. hmm. the game was kinda screwed up i tink. the GLs kinda messed up the whole running process and the seniors were kinda hard to handle. then i ust like keep quiet during the thing. sorry denise! dont worry actual camp i wont liddat=) and after amazing race everyone was feeling super down. and somehow raymond got kinda super pissed off and ended up injuring himself. TAKE CARE OF YRSELF MAN! den we had dinner and everyone was kinda like sian sian de. and dunno why i just felt like crying tried super hard to hold back my tears and not show that i was feeling down but luckily XJ and zen was there being their usual stupid self. haha. keep making me laugh but end up kinda no appetite so i only ate a little. after dinner timothy talked to us and he broke down. haiz. felt so sad at that time lar. can see that he super stress le. after dinner started preparing for nightwalk. i was stationed together with xuanjun aka chicken little. HAHA. scaring pple was fun but the GLs were damn brave. only a few were scared. LOL. and i scared both timothyS! HAHA! timothy SU damn dumb. he already noe we are there still can kena scare. and the GL timothy was damn funny. far far away already heard his breathing and he was talking to the sadako sia! he keep saying 'got thing in front. oh got thing got thing' i hide at the corner trying so hard not to laugh. HAHAHAHA. the nightwalk ended at 5 plus. den went to sleep till next day 10am.

day4
last day! yay! played the sentosa games in school. haha. had fun bombing pple=) den after that went back to change and had debrief lor. den was the ceremony thing le. the GLs find out who their partners are and stuff. the seniors played a trick on them. LOL. damn funny lar. after that break camp at 8pm. went home ate dinner and slept at 10pm! on the train suddenly i realised the WHOLE DAY i didnt eat anything at all! until dinner. cos breakfast i was not feeling well keep feel like vomit so i decided not to eat den no lunch cos was suppose to break camp at 330 end up drap till 8. so i only ate dinner yest! omg! and i didnt feel hungry lar. SIA LAR.

anyways. i slept till 1pm today. lol. was damn tired lar.
throughout this camp i tink everyone changed alot bah. endured through this whole prep camp sure has made us bonded. and i can feel a great change in the OCs too. at the start i could only hear them ASKING for respect which they obviously dont get but slowly they learn to EARN their respect=) good job everyone! timothy was a super great GM! he was the only one i could feel was gaining respect right from the start of everything which was why everyone listened to him. no one was unhappy with him=) YAY. oh yea. on the way home yest i heard timothy talking to ikhwan about the games. he looked damn stress bout the whole thing. and he sick somemore. not only him lar alot of other GPs also sick. TAKE CARE EVERYONE!

and stupid chicken little keeps spoiling my repuation.
(HAH! TOLD YOU I WAS GONNA SAY THIS!)
stupid XJ keep anyhow spread nonsense. he say i withdraw money from one atm and deposit in another den say my shirt wear 4 days never change den call me merlion(cos i was stationed at the merlion for amazing race) HE DAMN ASSHOLE LAR.
den keep making fun of me and merlion and atm. SEE LAR.
stupid.

but overall i tink this camp is worth remembering=)
CRUSADERS! IMBA!

prep camp=)

2008-03-29T02:36:00.002+08:00

yes. prep camp is over and i dunno whether i should say out the stuff here but anyways it was memorable=) we all came out of camp alot more bonded!
altho there were some unhappy things but we managed to settle it together as ONE. yay.
some changed some didnt bah.

anyways. it kinda sucks to be alone at camp.
haiz. do anything oso one person. wanna high oso dont dare.
suck suck suck.

2008-03-20T00:36:00.002+08:00

i thought i was strong.
strong enough to survive this alone.
but i realised ive changed.
changed alot compared to last time.
im not that strong anymore.
cos i finally broke down last night.
yea. im weak.

and the weakest thing bout me is....
i couldnt find the reason i broke down for.
haiz. where are you when i need you so badly?

i really dunno what am i holding on for.

love love~

2008-03-18T02:04:00.002+08:00

haf i mentioned b4 dat guys who can 自弹自唱（esp with keyboard) and guys who can drum are extremely attractive?
OMG.
i'll seriously fall in love with them.
i love this kinda talented guys!!!

AHHH~
like xiaozhu is one great example.
HOHO.

scream.

2008-03-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

went for tkgrcy campfire today.
only me and sooming turned up for our squad.
honestly. i tink the whole campfire was totally SCREWED UP.
it was so boring lar. and the guests werent alot too.
haiz. standard drop by alot again.

anyways.
im here to rant today.
suddenly feel like quitting this whole smit FOC thing.
haiz. not so much of being tekan-ed.
it's just somehow the feeling of getting corporal punishments here and the feeling of getting corporal punishments last time in red cross is so different.
no doubt it was much worst last time in tkg.
but at least i dun feel so ermm.......... bu fu qi after everything.
ARGH. i dunno how to describe the feeling larr.
maybe it just feels different being punished by someone of your own age.
last time we were punished by seniors. hmmm.

i dont understand why we should be punished by the OCs
so what if they're OCs? they are still our age.
i noe why i didnt feel like this last time. because as seniors they have more right to do all this punishment things on us. why?
because they went through all this before. they are in a much better place to comment on how bad we are.
BUT the OCs are just as inexperienced as us.
just because they are OCs doesnt make them alot higher rank than us to be punishing us and using their 'power' as OC to be controlling us.
makes sense?
hmmm.
and somehow i feel some OCs give me that kind of feeling like......
'eh. im OC ok. HIGH RANK. u all better obey me'
it's effing irritating. AND STOP USING PUSH UPS TO ABUSE YOUR POWERS.
punish at the right time. NOT WHEN U FEEL LIKE IT.
i keep hearing pple use 'pumping' to threaten everyone.
wtf.

i dont feel like going for monday's bonding session.
call it a bonding session.....
it's not even bonding at all.

squadmates for life

2008-03-13T00:35:00.003+08:00

this feeling suddenly overwhelmed me.
i miss my squadmates ALOT.
haiz.

i dreamt of tanglin yest! and she just told me she was looking at my photo yest.
telepathy? haha. it always happens.
and both me and yingqi's back are hurting.
LOL.
going for tkgrcy's campfire tmr.
but not alot of pple going ehh.
oh wells~

suddenly i feel so lonely.
all my friends are in taiwan having fun=(
den my squadmates are all busy with their lives.
chionging for A levels'.
feel so unmotivated to do anything now.

i really really really miss tkgs life alot alot.

oh yea.
today i watched bfb and saw the news bout xiaozhu injured his neck while filming.
DAMN SCARY.
his face was totally PALE.
i mean seriously WHITE.
nv see any casualty so pale b4 lar. SCARY.
take care lar u pig. injured so many times this year.
HAHA.

旧病复发backpain

2008-03-12T02:00:00.002+08:00

sth is wrong with my back.
dunno why just now evening suddenly pain.
and it's the place where i injured b4. near spine.
hopefully is nth serious. cos i nv do anything dat will hurt my back de lor.
haiz. dunno why suddenly 旧病复发

back pain can mean alot of things ehh.
kidney prob is on of them lehh.
i scared arr.. cos........................
ahhhh.
i scared.

2008-03-11T14:42:00.002+08:00

hoho! i just on channel 102 and they just nice show luozhixiang's MV.
LUCKY ME=)

been feeling kinda down this few days.
dunno why either. hais. maybe it's the weather? gloomy day.
blahh. miss my squadmates alot alot suddenly.
QUEK i love you too=)
and all other 15 of u!
cant wait for school to start. sucks to live so aimlessly everyday.

jingying's gone to hk and hui's at taiwan.
no one's gonna accompany me to SMIT GP bonding.
HOW? sucks larr.
i hope they both come back in time for prep camp. otherwise the camp sure suck.
cos i got no one to stick to=(
i mean no close friend lar.
denise so independent de. and she kinda close to the smit pple oso.

kinda miss the 4 days at IT fair. haha.
tiring but it was fun working with those bunch of pple=)
doubt we'll ever meet again bah. oh wells~

addicted to the song QING LAO.
damn nice. listen to it! it's on my playlist=)
xiaozhu sang it b4 lar. dats y i noe dat song. haha.
but it's really nice.
somehow im starting to like those oldies songs these days.
HAHA. retro-ing in music.

IT show

2008-03-09T00:04:00.003+08:00

been working at the IT show since thursday 12pm-9pm.
oh manns. it's damn tiring lar. imagine having to stand for 9 hrs and talk non-stop.
promoting the stupid ipod. OMG.
everybody sell until the end of the day all go crazy. HAHA.
but it's quite fun larr. the first day was totally horrible. i so wanted to cry sia.
ONLY SOLD 1 IPOD on the first day lar. den i so depressed.
haiz. 2nd day sold 4 ipods and today sold 8 ipods! yay.
haha. after u make the first sale it's like a super great sense of achievement cos u noe u broke the ZERO record. hope i can sell more tmr! my target is 5 AT LEAST.

my heel is hurting like mad lar.
and my lips are cracking cos in the aircon too long and keep talking den become very dry.
oh yea! they provide good food for dinner lehh. haha. it's good quiality food lor. so not so bad.
and those pple i meet are all nice pple=)
it's amazing how we become such great friends during the first day. and we only knew each other for 9 hrs. but it felt like we knew each other long time ago. haha.
but it makes working fun=) now we're like one big family. APPLE FAMILY.
HOHO.

OH YARRR!
yest we saw alot of artiste! haha. and i saw NAT HO and JOANNE PEH! OMG. nat ho is damn cute larrrr. den he walk past me i just keep staring at him!! ahhhh~ but luozhixiang still better. HEHE.
den saw project superstar candyce, jason.
and this fat actress. haha the J-team person. SHE DAMN CUTE OK. esp her specs.
go watch the 9'oclock show and u'll noe wad i mean bout her specs. they're real. not just for the show. den saw this guy who acts in police and thief as lee tok kong's friend. dunno wad's his name lar. but i recognise his face. haha. oh! still got another old actor. haha! so many pple! woohoo~

ipod for you sir/ma'am?

2008-03-03T01:05:00.002+08:00

I WANT GO WORK AT SINGAPORE'S STAGE SHOP!
haha. maybe can get discounted price for the stuff. LOL
and i'll be working for lzx!
how cool is dat?

but i tink i can just continue dreaming.
haha.
dream dream dream~
but dreams do come true right? if i dream hard enough....
den i shall dream harder bout working with him in the recording studio one day.
hahA.
*dreams super hard*

GP- HUAT AR!

2008-03-01T00:18:00.004+08:00

wooohooo~
im so happy i not medic! LOL
altho i did volunteer to be one at first. cos now i tink GP more fun. HAHA!

anyways.
went to school today and came back kinda late. reached home at about 11pm.
haha. went for some bonding session and campfire song practice.
den we played captains' ball.
DEN I HURT MY HAND. stupid lar.
asked darren help me bandage cos he happen to come into the club when i went in to get bandage.
haha. THANKS DARREN=)

den after dinner went back school to do other things lar.
which i tink not fang bian to say here incase some GL happen to pass by my blog.
LOL.
GPs rocks anyway=)

OH YEA.
this camp got corporal punishments! OMG.
keep reminding me of the red cross days=) the ever so great word : KNOCK IT DOWN!
been long since i heard that phrase. haha!
oh yea. this whole thing is like training camp for us lar. except the standard not as high as wad i had experienced in tkgs. haha. so i still tink is ok=)
oh yea. and after the push-ups i almost jump up and say TK!
haha. only my squadmates will understand wad i mean bah. LOL.
i miss tkgrcy times=(

anyways. here's a photo of my bandaged hand!
(few days ago i had my ankle bandaged up)

and to my coincidence i saw..............

THIS on xiaozhu's blog today. haha.
he also got his hands and leg bandaged up.
HAIYO. take care lar you.

where oh where

2008-02-26T23:17:00.002+08:00

ARGHHHHH.
IM DAMN PISSED.
SUPER PISSED.

I CANT FIND ANY OF MY STAGE SHIRT!
BEEN AT LEAST 3 WEEKS SINCE I LAST SAW THEM AROUND.
HOW CAN THEY BE LOST?! ALL OF IT?!?!?!?
ARGHHHHHHHHH.

2008-02-25T23:44:00.002+08:00

tmr is gonna be an interview day. haha.
2 job interviews in a day! but i hope i get the ipod job. HEHE.
oh wells. i really really seriously honestly truthfully DUN WANT OFFICE JOB.
damn boring lar. i need interact with pple or i'll just DIE. hoho.

anyways.
i tink my ankle havent fully recovered.
hmmm. i stupidly injured my ankle last week. the same ankle i sprained last time.
den i scared 旧病复发 cos like my ankle abit weird weird. will suddenly pain and feel like it's gonna break soon. AHHH.
had a torn ligament but should be ok la. I TINK. (altho it still feels weird. hmm)
and i cant sit cross legged. cos my ankle will feel like it's gonna tear apart.

OH YES!
xiaozhu sprained his ankle during his hk concert on sat!
HAIYO.

holiday is BORING

2008-02-25T01:00:00.002+08:00

the holiday is kinda getting boring.
haiz. tried to get a job at quite a few places (i mean those places where i wanna work at) but nobody wanna employ me=( sobsob.

AHHHH.
i cant wait for school to start lar. rotting at home is sucky. luckily next year i'll be at itp at this time. instead of rotting away trying to find things to do. ARGHHH. tmr got piano larrrr. damn sian.

im super envious of you.
i wanna lead your kinda life. 即使再苦再累也没关系~
haiz. but i doubt i'll ever make it THERE.
im just not born with that kinda talent and fortune=(

STAGE OMG!

2008-02-23T23:56:00.002+08:00

STAGE IS GONNA BE AVAILABLE IN SINGAPORE!!!!
OH MY GODDDDDD!

EVERYBODY SCREAM!!!!!
WOOHOOOO~

FDC 2008

2008-02-16T22:01:00.003+08:00

i guess this will be the last FDC i'll be attending.
and i must say it's very disappointing. haiz.
why is tkgs standard dropping so badly?
haiz. those skools that we were so confident of beating has overshot us. WAY pass our standard.
WHY IS THE UNIT BECOMING LIDDAT? haiz.
it wasnt so bad when we were still around. and when we were still juniors.
do sth bout it yea? my dear juniors....

im so tired.
like so totally drained. it's been long since i had this feeling.
and yingqi looked so depressed after the competition. until i oso dunno how to console her.
so i like just kinda ignored the fact that i noe she was not in a good mood.
cheer up quek. ask the unit to work harder next year=)
we got 1st runner up for east district still. it isnt that bad ok?
SMILE.

i kinda miss the feeling of being in tkgs.
i miss the days i feel so tired after a whole day of activity yet still feel so happy.
i miss those tough trainings under the sun. no doubt it was tough but memorable=)
i miss being part of tkgrcy and feeling that sense of togetherness in the unit.
but im not seeing that in the unit now. HAIZ.

i like the feeling of being drained and tired at the end of the day after a full day of events.
been long since i felt like this=)
but i enjoy being tired because of doing things i like. HAHA. like last time in redcross.
or even now, just rushing assignments in school till late at night and like feeling so drained after that.
gives you that sense of achievement at the end of the day. haha.
at least it's better than having nothing to do and knowing that you're rotting ur life away.

2008-02-16T01:11:00.002+08:00

http://www.wretch.cc/video/trackback.php?vid=4114658&id=a532062

AHHHHH!
watch the video!
the twins damn cute!!
hahaha. and so sweet lar=)

HAPPY MOUSIE YEAR!

2008-02-09T02:01:00.000+08:00

yay!
happy new year everyone!
wooohooo~
and bos are the coolest things ever created.
haha. cos it always contains money!
yay!

yest and today was spent visiting and collecting ang paos.
but today only went one place lar. and the ang paos collected wasnt as many as yest.
haha. the best thing about new year is the time spent with my ever-so-dearest cousins.
whee! we played cards and mahjong and everything possible. haha. so funnn.
long time since we spent such quality time together. i mean ALL OF US together=)
had loadsa fun. and I LOVE YOU CUZZIES! wonder when will we get to gather altogether again. everytime we meet surely got pple missing.

i shall post our beautiful pictures when i recieve it=)
koh mun ling+koh hui min+cheryl gan+germain gan+andrew gan+shaun kho+samuel kho+samantha kho= BEST COUSINS FOR LIFE.
lovvies=)

happy chinese new year!

tag replies:
grace> haha. yes that's the picture u took=) and the chinese stuff very easy to understand. just read carefully. HAHA.

hui> I MISS YOU TOO! i wanna go taiwan!=(

shadowx> CRYSTAL!! haha. i like ur blogskin too=) wad an unexpected visitor. haha! HELLO!