been reading my OWN blog the past few days. starting from the very beginning when this blog was first created. i guess i was sec 3 then? could feel that life has become very different. so different that i dont really know how to explain it. the only thing i realised after reading my entries in the past was that things seemed alot alot happier then.
there werent any problems between friends. it's like i knew everyone was trustable, and the people around me were my true friends. pple whom i noe i can trust and rely on in times of need. and no. they dont keep saying it all the time or keep telling you that 'yeah im here when u need me. just call me' or tell you that 'i love you sam. we're best friends', we dont hug each other when we see each other or even tell each other ' i miss you' all the time. but it's the kinda feeling you get when you are with them, the kinda things you do together, the times spent with each other. the way we really understood each other from the bottom of our hearts and the things you do for each other. some stuff dont really need to be spelt out between friends like this. i dont really know how to describe it. but it's just this telepathy thing we all seem to have between us. it's really hard to tell a third party about the kinda telepathy we have. you have to be part of it to feel it. even till now, although we dont see each other everyday like we used to or even talk to each other like we used to and worst we hardly even know how the other person's life is now. we only get to meet up once in many many months. but somehow the telepathy between us has never died, neither has it got weaker, instead, i think it got stronger and stronger everyday.
i lost count of the number of times when yingqi would suddenly pop out on msn and talk to me just when i was feeling down. and she never fails to understand what im going through. and no. i didnt tell her anything. it's just coincidence. and the time when i happened to tell tanglin that i suddenly miss her alot and she happened to be looking at our squad photo at the very same time. or the time when yingqi promised to buy me milo when i had gastric and she really did it! or the time when yingqi came down all the way to SP in the middle of the night just to give me a hug just because i called her and cried over the phone during FOC this year. or even the number of times when jiaen sent a very very sweet msg to tell us that squadmates are still here no matter what happens. and the times when the thought of my squadmates just brightened up my day. and most importantly, everytime i go for any event or be it just being in school, the images of my squadmates never fail to appear in my mind. and i'd always think how nice if my squadmates were with me now. going through the exact same thing as me. sharing the same joy im experiencing. and it's worst esp when im at camps. it's like every camp that i had been through had traces of my squadmates and now it's so different.
see. it's all the small minor incidents, the very very sweet things we do for each other. and the time we sacrifice just to meet up be it just for awhile. there's just too many things i can say about my squadmates and too many things i can remember doing with my squadmates that it'd probably be too much for me to type it all out. but it's stuff that i'll always remember. and.... thanks for being my squadmate, all 16 of you (:
6 years of friendship and we're still going strong (: im proud to say im part of the squad 3013-53
FRIENDS KEEP PROMISES WITH THEIR HEARTS.
you know.. i almost broke down when i recieved ur msg on sunday night.
i kinda lost count of the number of times i almost broke down within these 2 weeks. and the number of times i told myself to be strong and not to let the tears fall. i'd most probably hug and cry my lungs out to the next person who..................
9:56 PM
Saturday, November 01, 2008
it's been an uneventful yet unhappy week. haii. so many unhappy things happened. especially at home ): oh wells. sucks to have so many feelings bottled up inside. i really really feel like calling you up. just to chat. can i? ):
ah wells. yest did the live sound thing for BE's talentime. im glad we didnt really screw up the show this time. haha. althought the lightings were abit screwed up at first. but peiyun did a good job controlling the lights! haha. and there was only 3 of us to do the whole show la. i mean whole show including sound, lightings and setting up the stage. one person how to set up the the whole stage???!! haha. but we managed to do it. the only prob was the monitor speakers were not working and the wireless mic cant work too. so we had to shout from the stage to FOH. SHOUT. omg. lol. no la. we not so dumb. we used handphone to communicate. but it was kinda inconvenient. stupid wireless mic always cant work. lotsa smit pple came over cos shafiq was performing. haha. live sound is super cool and it's fun to work in the dark. lol. the atmosphere damn good. HAHAHA.
and some unhappy things happened but i do not wish to talk bout it here. all i can say is. i was damn pissed off that night. haii.
i tink im gonna give up soon. it's so tiring to wait and wait everyday. hope and wish everyday. but yet nth happens at the end of the day ):
10:51 PM
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
haii. it's happening all over again. except.. it's much worst this time. haii. i almost cried just now. it's so scary..
i so wanted to talk to you just now ): but i cant...
10:20 PM
Monday, October 27, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR COUSIN (: and all the indians are celebrating with you! how nice!! LOL. im mean. but I LOVE YOU ANYWAYS DEAR CHERYL GANNIE. hahaha.
today was a wonderful day spent. lol. had fun being retarded with my cousins. haha. i mean seriously retarded. we were doing the dumbest things ever. but it was fun (: I LOVE YOU COUSIN!
and yeaa. it was a nice afternoon spent with you too (: next time we shall plan WHAT to do and WHERE to go first. hahaha. yes. oh and i realised u dont have to be rich to be an audiophile. you need to be FREAKING rich to be one. like seriously. the prices are like OMGGGGGG. hahahaha. and the boss at the shop was scary. really! lol.
woooo. bye! LOVE YOU indian COUSIN! happy deepavali everyone! ((((:
12:08 AM
Saturday, October 25, 2008
i am soooo tiredddd.
this week is rather uneventful. hahha. nth much happened laa. im too lazy to elaborate bout the week. it's just school everyday. haha. school's fun but im so tired.... lol. but it's ok (: im enjoying this tiredness cos school's fun.
went out with vick grace and hui yest to watch movie. haha. cos we only had music theory from 8-10. lol. went to watch tropic thunder. funny show. lol. and yeah.
im too tired to type. haha. bloody cramps are irritating me. and keep making me want to sleep. argh.
yayy. im excited to meet you (:
9:59 PM
Monday, October 20, 2008
OMG! xiaozhu's new song! haha. for charity i tink?? nice laa. although it sounds like some oldies. the mix makes it sound like some oldies. LOL. but it's still nice (:
10:34 PM
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