Saturday, May 31, 2008
wah.
i reached home at 12am today.
oh my. haha.
today is a happy day generally. lol.
BUMS was fun. chat over coffee and tea aye. we had lesson in fc6. how cool is dat?
HAHA.
had piano lesson after that. was kinda sleepy during lesson. haha. but managed to survive through successfully. lol. except my scales were kinda screwed up cos i was so tired i couldnt co-ordinate my 2 hands. damn it. LOL.
after that came home to change and met mr S for dinner.
(haha. i follow chunhui. mr X)haha. chatted for a super long time bout so much stuff. esp MMR aye. lol. ok stop toking bout the MMR kae. stupid person. HAHA. opps.
but anyways. had fun during dinner=) must meet more often ok ok ok. lol.
and we walked from orchard to bugis. OH MY. altho i really didnt noe where i was walking. haha. just followed. yea.
den took train home. was so afraid i'll miss the last train. haha.
den reached home at 12 lor.
this whole week ive been coming home super late.
bad bad bad. AND ive been going to marina square so often. mon-thurs EVERYDAY GO MARINA SQUARE. oh my.
lucky today nv go there. ahaha.
this week is a super happy week.
performance for graduation was fun altho kinda screwed up. haha.
took lotsa photos! yay! shall post it when i get it.
gonna miss those pple who graduated. must come back to SP more often!
LOL.
ok. gonna end here.
tired.
1:00 AM
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
whoots.
i just reached home bout an hr ago?
haha.
tmr's performance for the graduation ceremony! woohoo!
but still feel kinda not prepared. like we really got not enough time to practice!!!
haha. hope everything goes well tmr=)
anyways. just now went out for dinner with shawn. lol.
cos i owe him a treat. but ended up i dont tink i treated him. we both paid 30 bucks. freaking ex lar. for one dinner. haha. but nvm lar ONCE IN AWHILE MAH. haha. as what he claims. LOL.
it was nice talking to him. yea he's a nice friend=) thanks for listening.
lol. after dinner we were bout to WALK to orchard road but met adelin samantha wong and suzanne over at marina so end up we went to eat desert together. haha! only 4 of us lar. suzanne left first. walked pass gelare and suddenly remembered today is tuesday!! got half price!!! YAY.
so we went there to eat lar. haha. den talk for super long time.
samantha and adelin damn funny lar. both of them damn cute pls. lol
after that left with adelin and samantha. cos we're all easterners! yay. was laughing away in the train. adelin damn funny. im serious. she's super funny. HAHAHA.
yea. had fun today=)
OH OH. thanks for the present. LOL
YOU. yes YOU.
SKSE. if you happen to be reading this.
YAR YOU. you're the only one who gave me present. HAHA.
yes YOU know who im talking bout. lol.
it's super cute.
THANKSSSS=)
P.S dont try guessing who lar. it's not who u tink it is. HAHA.
12:26 AM
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Been a long time since I really updated whats happening around me ehh.
LOL.
Finally im in a typing long story mood. So be prepared for a long long post=)
But lotsa photos too!
FIRST PERFORMANCE (last last week’s event?)
Yepp.
Our first performance for performance module was held at Moberly for its opening.
It was a super fun event I tink. Enjoyed playing on stage and watching other classmates perform too=) esp vick’s cello playing. It’s so OMG. Seriously you’ll just fall in love with him just by watching him play. Don’t see he always crazy crazy. Once he play his cello it’s like OMG. That’s so not vick anymore. He looks so serious and ahhhh ATTRACTIVE. (lol. Do I sound like im in love with him? Wahaha. . YES HE’S MY BESTEST FRIEND aka bear)
But im not the only one lar. go ask any other DMATers they’ll sure tell you the same thing.
Oh oh oh. So many smit pple was dere. Which makes it even more scary. At first I only saw them when chunhui was performing then after her group al the smit pple were gone so I thought they’ve gone home or sth and wont be coming back. Who noes just before my group was going up ALL OF THEM came back. OMG lar. Was damn nervous. Haha. Trembling away. Good thing the keys don’t shake. Wahaha. So no one noes my hands were trembling like nobody’s business. I swear my hands were literally shaking. HAHA.
But performing is fun=)
Went out for dinner with bout half the class after that. Had fun chatting and hanging around with the cool bunch of peepsJ
Last Saturday was string ensemble’s camp. Haha. Was kinda sick but still went for it lar. Had a hard time trying to teach the camp song cos apparently I was the only one in the room who really knew all the songs so I was shouting my lungs out. Haha. Was at the brink of losing my voice alr. Luckily Arthur came in to help. Haha. The camp was fun=)
OH. Ferguson stayed over as well and I sprained my ankle after night walk. All because of cockroaches. Damn those stupid cockroaches lar. Ferg went to kick the toilet door at T15 and SO MANY MANY MANY of them starting crawling about. I happened to shine the torch on the floor and really screamed my head off. HAHA. Chunhui told me my scream almost killed the rest of them cos me and grace ran down the stairs then chunhui peiyun and joel ran up the stairs. HAHA. I tink only ferg was left there. While running down the stairs I kinda stepped on a step thing sth like those small drains and my ankle was sprained. I COULD FEEL MY ANKLE BEND. So I knew it was a goner. Haha.
But it wasn’t that bad at first so I thought maybe it wasn’t injured afterall so I just continued walking an even ran to the casualty over at fc 5. he really sprained his ankle badly there. Haha. But I was limping away alr lar. Then I treated that freshie and sent him back to bunk. After that my ankle became really bad. It was damn painful lar. But it didn’t swell so I didn’t expect it to be so badly sprained.
After that we went to the dance studio and tried to get some sleep but my ankle was so painful I couldn’t sleep at all. And I was feeling really sick that night oso. Couldn’t breathe cos my nose was blocked badly. Haha. So I didn’t sleep lar. Until vick came in at around 6 or 7 plus? He so nice lar. Come help me massage my ankle. LOL. Was really tired in the morning and managed to fall asleep for bout ½ hr. then I gave up sleeping cos my ankle was really damn painful and I was feeling so sick. Haha. Luckily it was a 2D1N camp. Was limping very badly the next morning lar. Had such a hard time traveling home. When I reached home I finally iced it and bandaged it up and went to sleep. And guess wad. When I woke up my ankle was so swollen. that was when I realized how badly sprained it was, so I couldn’t walk at all on Sunday.
Luckily by Monday it was a lot better=)
TUESDAY
Haha. Nth much happened bah. Just stayed back to practice our zong zai wo shen pang. Hmm. Some unhappy things happened lar. But cheer up hui=) u have ur talents too ok! It’s a matter of whether uve realized it or not. And if you can get into this course means you have what it takes. So don’t think too much. We’re always here to help you! Even though i cant teach but still I’ll try my best to help you ok. Don’t worry! We’ll progress together=)
WEDNESDAY.
Haiz. Wednesday was generally an ok day. Until………hais.....
Im not gonna say what happened but to those who noes what happened just keep it to yourself. Those who don’t. don’t ask ok=) I really hate that incident. Really hate it to the core of the core. It just spoiled the entire day for me and made me totally shut down after that.
BUT I was glad I went to tampines to meet my dearest squadmates=)
They really brightened up everything and made me forget the unhappiness for that short period of time we were together. LOVE YA LOADS 3013-53. squadmates forever=)
Went home and finally broke down while bathing. Guess wad. I controlled the tears for 4 hrs. really controlled. I so wanted to break down on the spot when the thing happened but I knew I couldn’t cos things would turn ugly. So I reached home and really couldn’t stand it anymore. I was really scared. Really really terrified. It was a kind of fear I dunno how to describe. And I dunno what I was scared of. Things just suddenly became wrong. Everything just took a wrong turn and now it’s not gonna turn back. It’s hard.
That day I so wanted to talk to ***** but he was overseas. I really really wanted to call him but I couldn’t. I was feeling so lost and scared. Then I came online and vick grace chunhui and ***** wasn’t online. Damn. I really felt I was totally alone. So when chunhui’s name finally popped out on msn my tears just flowed like it was never gonna stop. Cried for almost an hr. really cried my heart out. Was so afraid my parents could hear me from outside lar.
Thanks hui for talking to me online=)
And especially to vick who immediately called me after I msged him. That was super sweet of you=)
I really felt so protected after talking to both of them. LOVE YA LOADS=)
THURSDAY
Haha. Nothing much bah. Was still kinda suffering from what happened on Wednesday. Gave vick a huge hug during lesson when he came and ask me if I was ok. Was really touched by what he did lar. Yes it was just a phone call. But it was a phone call so important to me that day. THANKS A LOT A LOT VICK=)
During performance I almost broke down again. Was trying so hard to hold back my tears. I swear if anyone was to come and ask me if I was ok at that point of time I would definitely have broke down.
Or at least even till now. When I tink bout it I still feel scared and can just break down any time. AHHH. Im trying hard to not think bout it. Yes. Im trying. Very very hard.
I dunno why but everytime in school I’ll be super afraid to be alone. It’s just that fear inside me but i dunno how to describe how i exactly feel. just super scared. It sucks to feel like this.
But at least I noe my friends are always there for me=)
Vick, grace, chunhui….. I just feel so safe around with them.
Glad to have you in my life. Really. Love you all to bits=)
FRIDAY
Yepps. Today is a happy day! Haha. Jimmy jap’s lesson was cancelled so which means I don’t hafta go sch today! Haha. Woke up at 12. wooohoooo.
But went to school for our performance practice then went to shun’s hse to celebrate his birthday. Haha. Had fun haning around wth our classmates and watching them throw shun into the swimming pool. Haha. Small boy. And he went round hugging everyone. Making everyone wet. LOL.
Left his place at 11+ and shared a cab home with grace and peiyun=)
And finally here I am typing all these.
That’s seriously a long long post. LOL.
PHOTO TIME!
filza!
yayys=) all same wallpaper.
dearest squadmates. not all tho=)
shhh. secret lar.
YAY
US AGAIN=)
act cute. haha.
PERFORMANCE DAY
bo cheng and grace
joannes gace us these flowers!
xiao xiong! LOL
sihao
henry. YO RYDER!
wira and hui
shun! i like this picture alot=)
YAY MY DEAR BEAR=) VICK!!
yes. he's that attractive. LOL
SHUN. he just had to show he was taller than me.
AND he's not exactly that tall in real life ok.
shun and vick.
i dunno what were they trying to do lar. HAHA.
joel and peilin
crystal
huihui
hui and grace
ahhh. save the bear!
LOVELIES=)
heh.
peilin
grace ALIEN
peiyun
joel
YAY. i did this photo myself. the loves of my life=)
love it loads.
it's my wallpaper now.
dont haf jeremy's photo. but i'll add it in once i get a photo of me and him=)
hey..
if u survived reading all the way till here.
i must say you were really patient.
12:39 AM
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
argh.
i seriously feel like crying now.
damn it.
why must you be overseas now when i want to talk to you so badly.
=(((((
come back. quick.
come back=((((
vick. where are you.
chunhui. where are you.
grace. where are you.
*****. COME BACK NOW NOW NOW.
AHHHHHHHHH.
damn.
im crying as im typing all this.
=(((((((((((((
im really really scared.
where are all of you.
10:48 PM
Friday, May 16, 2008
we are drifting apart.
we are. alot. the feeling of CLOSE just isnt there anymore.
everything seems to be so surfaced. argh.
and i dont like it when ure forcing urself to do things just cos ure afraid i will feel awkward or wad.
why cant things just be normal?
dont do it if u dont like.
it's like ure doing it just for the sake of doing it.
it defeats the purpose.
u end up making both parties unhappy.
i noe u were just trying to help.
but i can see u arent happy in the process of it.
and i dont like to see that. really. it's fine if u really dowan to do it.
u noe.
i always feel so out of place together with the group of you.
it's like im dere just because XX person is my friend.
and like XX is the main character and it doesnt even matter if i come along or not.
im just asked along out of courtesy.
maybe if one day i just suddenly go missing halfway while with the bunch of you no one would even realise i was gone.
im trying hard to join u all as often as i can.
im trying hard not to drift away from you you and you
but i noe some things just isnt possible if only one party sees the prob
haiz. there are just too many things i wanna say.
i dunno how to type it out either.
why are things becoming liddat.
so many events had happened.
shall update in detail another time. together with photos ok!
haha. today no mood to do all this uploading stuff.
been sick since tuesday. kuku-ded.
and having bad cramps today. sucks lar.
suddenly got very very serious cramps. been long since i last had cramps this bad.
dunno why.
11:19 PM
Thursday, May 08, 2008
woohoo.
so long nv update. miss me?
haha.
nothing fantastic happened so far. and im too lazy to blog in detail either.
LOL. school's as usual nothing much lar. wednesdays and thursdays are still equally dreadful.
damn the stupid DVPT module. excuse me? we're DMAT not DDM why are we doing all this DDM stuff. eeyer. i so hate drawing!
today went for dinner with weishan and chunhui. haha. laughed non-stop lar. weishan's damn cute and funny. and i realised he's actually a very nice person to talk to. a nice friend=) but really. i was damn tired from all the laughing. but it was an enjoyable dinner. haha.
oh yea. actually i promised to go shun's hse with grace and all but ended up i couldnt make it cos last minute i had to go get the black shirt for tmr's performance attire. im so sorry shun and grace! i noe i already promised you but i really had no choice cos i really really needed to get the shirt cos performance is tmr. next time ok? promise.
anyways.
just wanna say some stuff to some pple.
chunhui and grace: heyhey. im super glad to have both of you by my side all these while and for lsitening to all my problems or wadeva. love you girls alot alot. and really im not blaming you to for the way ure treating that person but it's just weird. if you understand wad i mean? like just put urself in my shoes lar. it's really weird. but thanks for ur understanding and the effort u all are making. till now. i still cant make up my decision and all those things that i told you are just based on my feelings and feelings change. so....... yea. but really thanks alot alot alot=)
and you
xiaobai: haha. thanks for all those stuff that you did so far. i realised you did alot and ive yet to even say a word of thanks. so THANKS ALOT. for the surprise, for the chocolates, for waiting after sch, for walking with me to g***, for sending me home, for chatting with me till so late just cos i dont feel like going home, for always trying to cheer me up when im down, for msging until both our phones no batt, for the care and concern when im not feeling well and for everything that uve done so far=) it's greatly appreciated!
oh. and shawn for talking to me bout the person=) haha.
tag replies:jiawei- hello! life's been normal. haha. u cheer up kae=)
Mr.J- hey. huan ying guang ling. LOL
hui: wey. i nv liddat hor. only grace so boliao. haha.
11:42 PM
