Friday, March 10, 2006
friday liaox..
and it's the last day of skool.. today sec 3s took over training.. didnt really attend the training lar.. only went for the vetting den.. haiz.. i dunno lar.. feeling so depressed suddenly..
camp's coming in 4 days time.. i was super excited yest.. but today.. everything that happened behind the door made me feel so irritated.. i just wish camp nv came.. but i still wanna go for camp.. i feel so irritated.. with i dunno wad.. the squad? **? ah wells.. dun try guessing wad the stars are..
this is so frustrating.. why do we suddenly seem so busy.. so many things to do.. so many things to clear.. ahhhh!!!! i wanna scream!!!!!!!! i just hope camp will turn out fine.. hopefully nth bad crops out at the last minute..
got chem supplementary on friday.. and it clashes with camp with that thing which i wanna go for!!! ahhhh!!!!!!! so irritating!!!!!!!!
i'm exploding.. wadeva lar..
it's like i finally understand wad ma'am ziting always told us:
be understanding to your seniors. it's not easy to lead a unit. being the particcipating cadet is always easier than being the one in-charge. so treasure your time well in tkgrcy. it's true lor.. seriously.. it's not easy being in-charge.. it's not easy being the one in the lead.. it's not easy to always be the best in front of your juniors.. we do get tired too u noe.. we're still humans afterall... we haf a limit to everything we can do.. no one's perfect..sighs..
farewell's coming.. camp's coming.. mid yrs are coming.. then prelims den Os.. haiz.. i feel so sick of my life..
after farewell.. life wud definitely be different.. it'll be totally different.. i wun be looking forward to goin to skool anymore.. i wun be looking forward to going for push-ups anymore.. i dunno.. i noe i wun.. no more motivations.. no more....... everything.. i want my squaddies to be with me forever and ever and ever..
oh wells.. i dunno why i'm feeling so depressed.. ever since after skool i've nv been happy.. haiz.. yeah.. no one can see the dark side of me.. i've learnt to hide my feelings well.. esp if i dowan anyone to noe..
i'm not always the happy sam u all see everyday. i haf my moods too. but no one noes.
there were times when i almost cudnt control anymore. times when i almost burst out at my squadmates.. but i controlled. bursting out at others wun make things any better.. it'll just make things worst. so tolerating is the best medicine.. ah wells.. i dunno.. i dun tink anyone ever saw me pissed with anyone before.. but the truth is.. i've been pissed with EVERYONE before.. at least once.. but....... u noe........
some unwanted pple noes my blog.. how i wish i can lock up my blog.. i dowan them to read such stuff.
i dun care.
8:44 PM
