Thursday, February 08, 2007
i dun like the person who composed auld lang syne..
cos it makes u cry no matter how hard u try to control.. really..
he's in a happy place now=) not suffering anymore.. we should be happy for him right??
yepp.. JIAYOUS bah.. gong gong...
he was still asking me bout my results the night before he.................
haiz.. dats y i super sad.. like all of a sudden he asked.... den dat was the last time i heard his voice=((((((((((((
he smiled before he left=) he's happy and satisfied.. we should feel happy for him.. but i didnt get to see him for the last time=(((((((((((((((
the most unforgettable fdc i've ever had even though i didnt take part... seriously.....
i've gotta admit my heart wasnt at the comp after i recieved the msg.. it happened when our school was out on the parade square.. haiz.... i didnt even see wad our school was doing even though i was staring at them.. my mind was blank.. i cried after the competition..haiz...
it was so sudden.. too sudden..
haiz.. i tot i wudnt cry.. but it's so hard to control esp when i tink about the past.. the times when he was still able to walk about..haiz.. really very saddening lar.. i didnt expect him to go so fast.. at least last till after new year..oh wells..
den at the crematorium the guy told us not to cry cos he say let him go peacefully, dun let him worry.. and i was trying to control not to cry.. but our mothers are crying so badly.. how to control!!!!!! i kept telling myself not to cry but it's so hard to control lar......rah...
it's so difficult to imagine having someone close to you leave so suddenly..
i've seen how he suffered..
i've seen how he, from a healthy person who is able to walk about become a person so weak on the bed to a person who walks with a walking stick to a person who walks with the help of others to a person who needs help to get up from bed to a person who totally haf no strength anymore..
the past few days before the maid came and i was suppose to take his blood pressure, everytime he stick out his hand he's trembling and shaking.. it's so saddening to see how his condition deteoriate so quickly..
haiz.. i'm sure he's very happy now, not suffering anymore.. he's blessing everyone of us.. he loves all of us..
WE LOVE HIM TOO..
10:04 PM
