Thursday, September 06, 2007

ok~
im kinda late in updating this thing. lol.
i was too lazy to upload all this photos cos it took such a long time.
im waiting for the videos to load so might as well update this soon-to-die blog.
haha. cos im lazy to blog. hee=)

anyways. the following entry is about teachers' day=)
so yes. i woke up early thanks to jeannie yang. called me at 9 to tell me she overslept cos she wanted to go back tkg at 9. like wth. SO EARLY? but ended up still late lor. kukuded. so i reached tkg at about 1030. just in time to see the last performance hahaha. den we did tk philosophy outside the hall and made ALOT of noise. haha.

after dat went to red cross room lor=)
met LOTSA darling SQUADDIES!! so happy!!
so we waited for alot of pple to come den went tampines! it's so nice to see them again!
went to eat at foodcourt and waited for quek. haha SHE BOUGHT ME MILO!

the story of the milo is as follows:
one day i was having super serious gastric. the kind of pain is like. i'd rather die.
cos i totally cant move at all. den yingqi say she'll buy me milo. haha. i tot she was just saying u noe. DEN SHE REALLY BOUGHT ME MILO=)
ok. the end.

and i promised to write her a letter for motivation too. and i wrote a full page long letter for her. haha. den she cried after reading it.
yes QUEK. FRIENDS KEEP PROMISES WITH THEIR HEARTS=)

den we were taking so many many pictures and making ALOT of noise as usual.
after dat we settled our squad jacket thing AND IT'S IN THE PROCESS OF BEING DONE!
2 weeks to completion! im hoping to get the jacket b4 school reopen!
den we went to walk lor. we somehow got split up and didnt realised it. haha.
sooming was with tang. i was with quek. pau fil atiqah and cera were together. kirstie and je went to get the squad jacket thing. but we met after dat. den went to find pau's 6 dollars bag only to find out dat it's gone. haha.

soot and cera had to leave so we had our group hug. in the middle of nowhere. lol.
after dat went for dinner lor and spent sooooo much time in long john just sitting around and spending time with each other=)
after dinner den went home lor. *hugggs*

on the way home with yingqi in the train we were like suddenly so quiet.
the feeling was so undescribable. it's like suddenly this feeling of emptiness overwhelms you. hais.
so many things were going through my brain on the journey home. especially after yingqi alighted at bedok=( and while walking home from the station i suddenly felt like i was back to the day we had our farewell. the feeling was so overwhelming i almost broke down while walking home.
and suddenly i understood sth dat xiaozhu once said:
the louder the cheers u hear when u're on stage, the more empty u'll feel when u're alone.
dat was exactly how i felt on the way home lar. it's like we had so much fun with each other even though it was just one day. we were enjoying every minute of it. being ourselves infront of our squadmates. it felt like we went back to our sec lives again. but the emptiness u feel when ure alone after that is so overwhelming..... it's really EMPTY.

we are back to our lives again.
we wont be seeing each other for quite some time again.

haiz. after dat day i found out that we were all facing the same problems. yes. we're all adapting well to our new lives i guess. but there's just this barrier in us that seem kinda hard to force open. we just dun feel like our normal selves in our new adapted lives.
but that was when i found out i wasnt fighting alone in this world. cos my squadmates are with me now and forever=) i could feel that strong bond between us. a bond so strong it'll never break. NEVER. cos it's a bond formed with 17 hearts.

3013-53 THE LASTING LEGACY
squadmates now and forever=)

im missing u all even more now~~~