Friday, March 14, 2008
went for tkgrcy campfire today.
only me and sooming turned up for our squad.
honestly. i tink the whole campfire was totally SCREWED UP.
it was so boring lar. and the guests werent alot too.
haiz. standard drop by alot again.
anyways.
im here to rant today.
suddenly feel like quitting this whole smit FOC thing.
haiz. not so much of being tekan-ed.
it's just somehow the feeling of getting corporal punishments here and the feeling of getting corporal punishments last time in red cross is so different.
no doubt it was much worst last time in tkg.
but at least i dun feel so ermm.......... bu fu qi after everything.
ARGH. i dunno how to describe the feeling larr.
maybe it just feels different being punished by someone of your own age.
last time we were punished by seniors. hmmm.
i dont understand why we should be punished by the OCs
so what if they're OCs? they are still our age.
i noe why i didnt feel like this last time. because as seniors they have more right to do all this punishment things on us. why?
because they went through all this before. they are in a much better place to comment on how bad we are.
BUT the OCs are just as inexperienced as us.
just because they are OCs doesnt make them alot higher rank than us to be punishing us and using their 'power' as OC to be controlling us.
makes sense?
hmmm.
and somehow i feel some OCs give me that kind of feeling like......
'eh. im OC ok. HIGH RANK. u all better obey me'
it's effing irritating. AND STOP USING PUSH UPS TO ABUSE YOUR POWERS.
punish at the right time. NOT WHEN U FEEL LIKE IT.
i keep hearing pple use 'pumping' to threaten everyone.
wtf.
i dont feel like going for monday's bonding session.
call it a bonding session.....
it's not even bonding at all.
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